Yep
Today started out like shit but got progressivly better. Started out with about 4ish hours sleep, then the ramp was closed to the interstate. Me being me decided to just climb over the freekin median and onto the interstate, didnt work. There was a metal pole in the ground just tall enough to catch the frame on the front of my truck. The 27 mile drive from winward pkwy took over an hour, so I was late to class. Pissed when I got there and it got worse as time went by. After class did a little piddlin around then me and J went and busted some fire wood. Not bad to bust a whole truck load in less than an hour, but were bad sombitches too so its all good. Went by and shot pool and talked to ms L for a few minutes then came home. Went back to marietta and me and J and manda and marcus all went to sidelines for a drink and just to chill and discuss the meaning of life and other random nonsence bullshit. Just got home and im fixen to go do something against my better judgement. Shes married, she gave me her number, she answered when i called. When am I going to learn. I have been told I am harmless, but here lately I have really been wondering if thats the truth or something more. Two different people told me that, but niether of them really know me that well either. A few drinks and some talking is completely harmless, but I dont think I would like it if my signifigant other was out doing it. Im bored...thats a bad thing cause I'll find something to do.
All bullshit aside, im bout fucking miserable here. Some of you know why... But like I say, all you can do is what you can do. Hate to leave shit hanging, but im tired of worrying about it and loosing sleep, im not getting enough as it is to have what little I can get be restless over something I cant control. Its pretty bad when dad says I look like im about to snap the other morning at breakfast. " Your supposed to be having fun you last semster in school before you get back in the real world." Behind in school work, behind on bills, stressed over someone who I really wonder if cares about half the time, dad needs help around the house and im not here long enough to do anything but sleep, the yards a mess, my rooms a mess, im broke and school doesent allow me time to make money. Did a few things im not proud of for someone else and got shit on for it, when am I going to learn about that one too. Guess just me being stupid or something I dunno whats my problem half the time. My one word of advise to myself is dont worry about what you cant do anything about. I thought we had more than that, but I guess I was wrong about that one.
Humans are built to communicate, why is it easier for some than others?
*drinks PBR and reconsiders decision about tonite*
I cant wait till next week so I can have a break from stuff and maybe get a good nites sleep.
All bullshit aside, im bout fucking miserable here. Some of you know why... But like I say, all you can do is what you can do. Hate to leave shit hanging, but im tired of worrying about it and loosing sleep, im not getting enough as it is to have what little I can get be restless over something I cant control. Its pretty bad when dad says I look like im about to snap the other morning at breakfast. " Your supposed to be having fun you last semster in school before you get back in the real world." Behind in school work, behind on bills, stressed over someone who I really wonder if cares about half the time, dad needs help around the house and im not here long enough to do anything but sleep, the yards a mess, my rooms a mess, im broke and school doesent allow me time to make money. Did a few things im not proud of for someone else and got shit on for it, when am I going to learn about that one too. Guess just me being stupid or something I dunno whats my problem half the time. My one word of advise to myself is dont worry about what you cant do anything about. I thought we had more than that, but I guess I was wrong about that one.
Humans are built to communicate, why is it easier for some than others?
*drinks PBR and reconsiders decision about tonite*
I cant wait till next week so I can have a break from stuff and maybe get a good nites sleep.