i love the things that we should fear
so today was amazing.
yesterday was amazing.
the day before that was amazing.
this weekend made me feel complete. until it ended. until the worries come back. until i feel temporary again.
i am so effing dumb. so so so effing dumb. i wish i wasn't so effing smart. i want to be dumb so i can't see all the things that are wrong, & know better, & yet not be able to fix them, even having all the knowledge on how.
music helps. momma helps (surprisingly). brandt helps. camera helps. lyrics help. green tea helps. i don't know what else.
school tomorrow i guess. i can already imagine it: zombie Car, walking blindly around to each class & simply not giving a crap at the teachers when they yell... coz you know they will...
school is so effing ghey, it makes me want to say the eff word for real. but i refrain again. ♥
the end of valentine's day.
yesterday was amazing.
the day before that was amazing.
this weekend made me feel complete. until it ended. until the worries come back. until i feel temporary again.
i am so effing dumb. so so so effing dumb. i wish i wasn't so effing smart. i want to be dumb so i can't see all the things that are wrong, & know better, & yet not be able to fix them, even having all the knowledge on how.
music helps. momma helps (surprisingly). brandt helps. camera helps. lyrics help. green tea helps. i don't know what else.
school tomorrow i guess. i can already imagine it: zombie Car, walking blindly around to each class & simply not giving a crap at the teachers when they yell... coz you know they will...
school is so effing ghey, it makes me want to say the eff word for real. but i refrain again. ♥
the end of valentine's day.