Conundrum
When I'm feeling like crap, the thing I most want to do is talk about it. At this same, talking about how much I feel like crap is the last thing I should be doing, especially since I feel hopeless, guilty and lonely rather often. Nobody can put up with that kind of conversation on a regular basis.
The only good thing to have come from this particular round of crapulence is that I have convinced myself that it is now OK to fuck with my brain, since I'm clearly past the point in my life where I still had the potential to accomplish anything noteworthy... so at some time in the next 2-6 months, I'm going to find out what kind of psychological "help" exists in Toronto, and try to follow whatever loopy advice they give me.
I suspect they'll tell me to stop drinking before anything else. Alcohol seems to be to psychology what smoking is to physiology. I would be tempted to quit drinking pre-emptively, but I'm concerned that would alienate too many friends if I tried it without a doctor's note.
The only good thing to have come from this particular round of crapulence is that I have convinced myself that it is now OK to fuck with my brain, since I'm clearly past the point in my life where I still had the potential to accomplish anything noteworthy... so at some time in the next 2-6 months, I'm going to find out what kind of psychological "help" exists in Toronto, and try to follow whatever loopy advice they give me.
I suspect they'll tell me to stop drinking before anything else. Alcohol seems to be to psychology what smoking is to physiology. I would be tempted to quit drinking pre-emptively, but I'm concerned that would alienate too many friends if I tried it without a doctor's note.