C.H.A.N.T.O
it's almost two months now that we haven't properly discussed the issue. the fact that i should confirm and talk about it properly was never started. I never get back to the issue and it hasn't been resolved. it is hanging and i am guilty to make it worse. i feel deeply hurt by the words..but deep down i know he's hurting by my silence. we grew apart..a hell of distance with us both hanging on the cliff. i feel hurt..he feel betrayed. i gave the taste that he will never forget.
but..truth is, i should be honest and face it head on, should have properly convey whatever the decision i have made. i risk the future..i risk us..i risk him just because i feel hurt by the words.
sadly i know that part of it was my mistake. i got carried away and my pride won't let me turn back.
i run away..
i run away..
deep down, i wish i wasn't being emotional in making the decision but honestly, i did.
so ya, im a little sadden by it..it's a lesson learnt and i never should have keeping quite and let it hanging*sigh*
but..truth is, i should be honest and face it head on, should have properly convey whatever the decision i have made. i risk the future..i risk us..i risk him just because i feel hurt by the words.
sadly i know that part of it was my mistake. i got carried away and my pride won't let me turn back.
i run away..
i run away..
deep down, i wish i wasn't being emotional in making the decision but honestly, i did.
so ya, im a little sadden by it..it's a lesson learnt and i never should have keeping quite and let it hanging*sigh*