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Hooray, three-day weekend! I don't have to work Monday because of a schedule shuffle we're doing, and then I have next Monday off for Labor Day Memorial Day Labor Day. I've found that my own personal autism (among many other weirdnesses) is that whenever I get unaccounted for free time, like an unexpected day off, I become paralyzed with a sort of overwhelming weird boredom/depression mix that I have a hard time articulating. It's not that I can't think of anything to do with my time but quite the opposite - I'm so used to constantly juggling and balancing all of the books I want to read, the video games I want to play, the DVD's I want to watch, the creative things I want to work on (electronics, music), the friends I want to spend time with, and the chores and obligations that I need to take care of that when suddenly confronted with a big swatch of unclaimed time, I'm paralyzed by the indecision. I suddenly feel like I don't want to do any of those things, while simultaneously feeling antsy and feeling like I want to do something that I can't put my finger on. I end up trying to do the things - I'll fire up a game of Dwarf Fortress, only to feel like it's not what I really want to do, so I pick up a book and read it for 10 minutes, until I feel like I'd rather be doing something else. Repeat repeat repeat. I usually end up just wasting the entire day by doing stuff like watching Starsky and Hutch. I'm not really sure what to do about this, though sometimes I write down little "agendas" and things that I'm particularly in the mood for.
If anyone local reads this, does anyone want to do anything tonight? I'm thinking you can come over and watch me play Dwarf Fortress, then I'll read a book and do an electronics project.
If anyone local reads this, does anyone want to do anything tonight? I'm thinking you can come over and watch me play Dwarf Fortress, then I'll read a book and do an electronics project.