sorrow will come and go but my love for her is eternal
WHY THE FUCK DO I HURT THOSE I CARE ABOUT. I FEEL LIKE SHIT. A SIMPLE PRANK IS GOING TO TURN OUT SO FUCKING BAD. THIS IS GOING TO HAVE REPROCUSSIONS. I KNOW IT. DAYNA WILL HATE ME AND JOSH WILL TO. I GIVE UP. LIFE AND LOVE. WHY THE FUCK ARE THEY SO FUCKING COMPLICATED? MAYBE I NEED TO SAVE EVERYONE THE FUCKING TROUBLE OF MY FLEETING EXISTANCE. AND JUST FUCKING DIE. SUICIDE. THAT SOUNDS NICE. I AM NOT TRYING TO BE NEGATIVE BUT I CANT HELP IT AT THIS POINT. I LOVE HER SO FUCKING MUCH THAT SHE WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND. MY HEART HURTS. IT HURTS REALLY BAD. I HURT HER. MY TEMPER I CANT CONTROL SOME TIMES. AND WHAT HAPPENED TONITE WAS FUCKED UP. JOSH AND HER MESSING WITH ME WAS NOT COOL. BUT WHAT CAN YOU DO? I CANT STOP IT. THEN OHH FUCKING WELL. I AM CRYING RIGHT NOW. NOT PHYSICALLY BUT EMOTIONALLY. I NEED LIQUOR AND LOTS OF IT. ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS I LOVE HER AND I DONT WANT TO LOSE HER. BUT IF I DO LOSE HER TO JOSH. THE HOSPITAL IS WHERE HE GOES. I KNOW IT SOUNDS BAD BUT I WILL BE OK. I AM COLD INSIDE I CAN DEAL WITH PAIN. NOT THAT IT MATTERS IT IS JUST ME. HORTY THE ALL UNIMPORTANT HORTY. FUCK THIS I LOVE HER. DAYNA I LOVE YOU. BYE.