Reflections.....
I'm sitting here.... I've been staring at this friggin' computer since like five thirty....I'm so ducking bored...... Aunt Mom wanted to see me before I leave, but I don't think that is going to happen anymore. I'm so hungry and tired. My god. I want to go out and eat somewhere with Mark, but he's like, maybe, and I'm like, dude, one twelve hour day is nothing! I work them three to four days a week! Ugh. I was so looking forward to clubbing or something tonight... and now Chris has the night off.... double ugh. He hates me, I believe.... but then again, I would hate myself, too, if I thought I stole my love away. *sigh* Why am I so weird feeling right now? I think I need to go take a nice, hot shower... get the smell of latex gloves, gasoline, and plastic off my hands and the friggen factory smell off of my body.... I am dirty today, yes indeed.... Ugh. I'm so hungry!
*sigh
Why do I wait for people?????????????????
Why do I get my hopes up???????????
Why am I so BLONDE sometimes??????????
Why the fuck do my parents say that I disowned my family???????
Why the fuck do I even care????????
Why don't I just walk up to my folks and be like, that's my stuff, bitch, I'm taking it and leaving????
Why am I so fucking depressed right now????
*sigh... I think I'm just going to go to bed. I can hang out with people tomorrow.... Ugh. I'm so friggin tired of this emotional shit. Why does life have to be all drama???
Dammit, I STILL haven't gotten those Queer As Folk Seasons 1-3 from Hong Kong yet!!!!!! Fuck it! I'm pissed... They should have been here a few days ago....
AND FUCK THIS FUCKING POP-UPS THAT WON'T FUCKING GO AWAY!! AND FUCK IT THAT IT WAS BLAMED ON ME FOR A LONG TIME!!! AND FUCK THE NO APPOLOGY, EITHER!
Jeez... so much for that dumb 'no swearing' thing I was going to try.... fuck.
*sigh
Why do I wait for people?????????????????
Why do I get my hopes up???????????
Why am I so BLONDE sometimes??????????
Why the fuck do my parents say that I disowned my family???????
Why the fuck do I even care????????
Why don't I just walk up to my folks and be like, that's my stuff, bitch, I'm taking it and leaving????
Why am I so fucking depressed right now????
*sigh... I think I'm just going to go to bed. I can hang out with people tomorrow.... Ugh. I'm so friggin tired of this emotional shit. Why does life have to be all drama???
Dammit, I STILL haven't gotten those Queer As Folk Seasons 1-3 from Hong Kong yet!!!!!! Fuck it! I'm pissed... They should have been here a few days ago....
AND FUCK THIS FUCKING POP-UPS THAT WON'T FUCKING GO AWAY!! AND FUCK IT THAT IT WAS BLAMED ON ME FOR A LONG TIME!!! AND FUCK THE NO APPOLOGY, EITHER!
Jeez... so much for that dumb 'no swearing' thing I was going to try.... fuck.