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I don't know what the hell is going on with all this freshman drama except that most of it originates in some way from Kevin. Why is he trying to ruin everything for me? God. I wish I had just left him alone. I am through with him. He is not going to break my heart one more fucking time. If any of you are reading this, I was joking with Stephen. I do not hate anyone. I do not even hate Kevin no matter how hard I try. Isn't that pathetic? I think that by hating him I can be happy again. I'm so angry at life. So fucking angry.
Also, I'm glad that I have you on my side, Irene. At least one person who actually knows what happened between Kevin and myself.
If you want to know why I fucking broke up with him, read below.
I was afraid of him. He pushed me into a wall in December and always, always yelled. I couldn't handle the yelling and fear that he would hurt me because I had been in an abusive relationship before I moved and he was doing the same exact things. The thing that kills me is that I tried to save us. I tried to talk to him about his agression, but what did he do? Yell more! He knew it was ending and he didn't try to do anything. About five times I've reached out and tried to be his friend. Five times I've offered to forgive him. Five times I've asked for forgiveness. And everytime I'm met with spite and anger. I'm sick of it and I'm sick of Kevin Zimmerman. So if you want him, you take him, by all means. But as far as I'm concerned, he can wallow in self pity as long as he likes. I'm done trying to help him.
In other news:
I'm going to try to go home soon, Lindzuses, and I need to see you again. I miss you so much.
Also, I'm glad that I have you on my side, Irene. At least one person who actually knows what happened between Kevin and myself.
If you want to know why I fucking broke up with him, read below.
I was afraid of him. He pushed me into a wall in December and always, always yelled. I couldn't handle the yelling and fear that he would hurt me because I had been in an abusive relationship before I moved and he was doing the same exact things. The thing that kills me is that I tried to save us. I tried to talk to him about his agression, but what did he do? Yell more! He knew it was ending and he didn't try to do anything. About five times I've reached out and tried to be his friend. Five times I've offered to forgive him. Five times I've asked for forgiveness. And everytime I'm met with spite and anger. I'm sick of it and I'm sick of Kevin Zimmerman. So if you want him, you take him, by all means. But as far as I'm concerned, he can wallow in self pity as long as he likes. I'm done trying to help him.
In other news:
I'm going to try to go home soon, Lindzuses, and I need to see you again. I miss you so much.