So rollercoaster day
So, it is one of those days that is so good and so bad, and i still feel like a royal mess. Errggg, kinda just want to lay down and cry.
So there is the stupid boy bullshit that i have dealt out to myself, and definately did things i should care about but i simply don't. That isn't good, i should care about the shit i am doing, and the fact that i am screwing up my life a little bit more than nessisary, but then again i am taking a chance on someone which doesn't happen very often. So yeah, long story, don't think i care for being in my brain in regards to that mess.
Then today i got the call that i could get my new truck! It is pretty and awesome and i love it. 2006 Ram 2500, Hemi Engine, Dark Grey, just pretty, Extended Cab, Long bed, just huge, hehe, awesome to have. Now i have a car.
Then i find out Ozzie is lame in both back legs....both of them, and they aren't doing a fucking thing. I love/hate this horse, i wanted him to be miserable outside not broken, but they wont even look at him, i don't know what the hell to do, this situation royally sucks. I HATE being given horses that i don't get lessons on because the trainers don't like them, then get nothing because they break....ERRRRRR
But on the high Ginger was awesome at the Jeff Cook Clinic this week, we learned soooo much, it was a good feeling and i fell like my riding has improved a ton over the last two days.
Then i got to pick up the truck, then back to the barn, for a lecture on movement and balance awesome lecture, so into it, then i had to go and leave early to supervise freshman sheath cleaning, ewww. Then while doing the whole thing, only supposed to be there for 30 mins, well the person to watch after me is late, so i am stuck there for an hour, then did stalls and the like, it worked out really well, got home at like 5:30...just been an up and down day with minor ups and downs inside the major ones...andnow i think i am just exhasted physically and emotionally, going to go eat ckae and get ice cream with MJ and Liz then go to sleep because my day needs to be over i will try again tomorrow.
So there is the stupid boy bullshit that i have dealt out to myself, and definately did things i should care about but i simply don't. That isn't good, i should care about the shit i am doing, and the fact that i am screwing up my life a little bit more than nessisary, but then again i am taking a chance on someone which doesn't happen very often. So yeah, long story, don't think i care for being in my brain in regards to that mess.
Then today i got the call that i could get my new truck! It is pretty and awesome and i love it. 2006 Ram 2500, Hemi Engine, Dark Grey, just pretty, Extended Cab, Long bed, just huge, hehe, awesome to have. Now i have a car.
Then i find out Ozzie is lame in both back legs....both of them, and they aren't doing a fucking thing. I love/hate this horse, i wanted him to be miserable outside not broken, but they wont even look at him, i don't know what the hell to do, this situation royally sucks. I HATE being given horses that i don't get lessons on because the trainers don't like them, then get nothing because they break....ERRRRRR
But on the high Ginger was awesome at the Jeff Cook Clinic this week, we learned soooo much, it was a good feeling and i fell like my riding has improved a ton over the last two days.
Then i got to pick up the truck, then back to the barn, for a lecture on movement and balance awesome lecture, so into it, then i had to go and leave early to supervise freshman sheath cleaning, ewww. Then while doing the whole thing, only supposed to be there for 30 mins, well the person to watch after me is late, so i am stuck there for an hour, then did stalls and the like, it worked out really well, got home at like 5:30...just been an up and down day with minor ups and downs inside the major ones...andnow i think i am just exhasted physically and emotionally, going to go eat ckae and get ice cream with MJ and Liz then go to sleep because my day needs to be over i will try again tomorrow.