there's a hole in my soul
well it's been brought to my attention that I should update this more often, so here goes. I started dating this chick, well I dunno if you could call it that. fuck I dunno anything anymore. but everytime we go to meet it seems like something always pops up at the very last fucking second. like yesterday we were supposed to go to the drive in, but OOPS she forgot it was her dad's birthday til thursday night. so then said she would come down sunday, but UH OH! now she's sick. but how much ya wanna bet me she goes to her friends wedding shower? (of a wedding that already happened mind you.) If she doesn't want to meet me that's all she's gotta say, she can quit with this beating around the bush shit and finding every damn excuse not to see me. I should start smoking. or maybe I'll go get plastered, so plastered I get alcohol poisoning. won't that be fun? but I am tired of the empty words and the broken promises, and especially the broken heart. FUCK IT! god wants to see how far I can be pushed til I break? well bring it on god I'm sure it won't take much fucking more.