I'm so lonesome I could cry
Lately I have been battling a REALLY REALLY REALLY bad depression. Sure I been depressed before, but lately it's all been amplified. I've just had some eye opening things happening lately. All my friends I grew up with are doing just that, growing up and moving on with their lives. Me I'm stuck on square one, do not pass go do not collect 200 dollars. I'm 19 years old. most people have some kind of direction in their lives by now. I'm stuck living with my parents. I will depend on them the rest of my life. I can't work for reasons I'd rather not talk about on here. It just hurts so much knowing I'll never really be able to grow up ya know? why was I even fucking born? I have always said that Suicide was a cowards way out, but here lately I have been feeling more and more cowardly. I've been thinking about the lyrics to free bird a lot lately. "If I leave here tomorrow will you still remember me?" I often wonder have I done anything to make an impact on anyone's life, or am I just aimlessly coasting through life just wasting space til my number is up? Friday I'm going to six flags and try to get some enjoyment out of this thing some call life. I believe this is my longest entry. well I will leave you with this quote, "All men die, but not all men truely live."
Adios.
Adios.