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ok read enough of my livejournal entries.... was i really that boring? i didnt even talk about hugwah.... god damnit.... haha i did a love match between libra and cancer (me and hugwah) and it was like THE SEXUAL TENSION IS STONG!!! YOU CAN'T KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF EACH OTHER!!! and i was like.... AHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA YOU HAVE GO TO BE FUCKING KIDDING... pshhh I WISH!! I miss my Misfits obsession...... And ...... i just realized that itunes fucking sucks!! they have no good music... its like you look under The misfits and it doesnt have fucking Famous Monsters and then you look under Led Zeppelin who supposedly everyone likes because they wear a shirts with led zeppelin on it and it comes up with only tributes..... dude its like... fuck....you..... understand... no... f...u...c...k... ...y...o...u...!...!...!...!... understand?!?!? you better fucking understand or im going to get all gangster in yo ass.... haha just kidding but seriously..... *thinks about hugwah* happiness goes around the world like butter is spread on toast..... not.... only in the world of sonia loves hugwah.... dude 4 days left of living in my house........ suck!!! but cool at the same time..... god i miss.... i dunno...i should go back to sleep..... oh i watched fucking american idol.....it was boring and paula was all hitting on guys that were like 17.... it was creepy
paula. so uh.. *checks out 17 year old male* you think you got what it takes? *then she fucking starts bouncing up and down*
i was like........pshhhhhh hahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahaaha CREEEP!!!! But that is the majority of people of this generation..... also to be big and buff and skinny... god i fucking hate its like they try an make you hate yourself to a point where you are like whoa because i dont have a tall and skinny figure i must be extremely ugly... but all the people i know with low self esteem are like realy really attractive..... i remember back in 7th grade when luna and ragna were like im fat and need to lose 10 pounds and i was like dude... you are so fucking skinny you fucking wear size 1 pants and i would love to be like that, and i am totally jealous of your guys's figures... and for like the longest time i was fucking shocked and pissed off at myself for being the way i am but now im kind of like well i can change it or it could be totally worse. And at times i do find myself attractive, but then other times, like when old guys hit on me, im like well what do you see in me? and if you dont see anything in me do you really think i am that fucking desperate to screw someone? yeah.... i am totally against my apperance, but i think everyone is and i dunno... like i know sometimes people are like im so fat/ugly/acneified/tubby/etc. just so you can say no you are not you are gorgrous and they are like sponges and absorb it because they know its true. I find that very pathetic. I must sound really pathetic and bitchy... But im not fucking saying sorry anymore.... I am fucking...gah.... i have said sorry to many fucking times and i have decided sorry is just a word it's not fucking true... like oh im sorry i lied behind your back you are just going to fucking do it again... i am just sick of being sorry and saying sorry and i dont care if you get pissed off i really dont because it is my opinion and i have the fucking right to believe what i fucking want.... you must think im crazy i do too....
things sonia learned today:
-people think of me as a following push over
-i can be a fucking smart ass and its going to show.... oh its going to fucking show
-a lot of people find me bitchy
-i am really tired so i should go to bed
-when i get really pissed off i type faster and start shaking.....
paula. so uh.. *checks out 17 year old male* you think you got what it takes? *then she fucking starts bouncing up and down*
i was like........pshhhhhh hahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahaaha CREEEP!!!! But that is the majority of people of this generation..... also to be big and buff and skinny... god i fucking hate its like they try an make you hate yourself to a point where you are like whoa because i dont have a tall and skinny figure i must be extremely ugly... but all the people i know with low self esteem are like realy really attractive..... i remember back in 7th grade when luna and ragna were like im fat and need to lose 10 pounds and i was like dude... you are so fucking skinny you fucking wear size 1 pants and i would love to be like that, and i am totally jealous of your guys's figures... and for like the longest time i was fucking shocked and pissed off at myself for being the way i am but now im kind of like well i can change it or it could be totally worse. And at times i do find myself attractive, but then other times, like when old guys hit on me, im like well what do you see in me? and if you dont see anything in me do you really think i am that fucking desperate to screw someone? yeah.... i am totally against my apperance, but i think everyone is and i dunno... like i know sometimes people are like im so fat/ugly/acneified/tubby/etc. just so you can say no you are not you are gorgrous and they are like sponges and absorb it because they know its true. I find that very pathetic. I must sound really pathetic and bitchy... But im not fucking saying sorry anymore.... I am fucking...gah.... i have said sorry to many fucking times and i have decided sorry is just a word it's not fucking true... like oh im sorry i lied behind your back you are just going to fucking do it again... i am just sick of being sorry and saying sorry and i dont care if you get pissed off i really dont because it is my opinion and i have the fucking right to believe what i fucking want.... you must think im crazy i do too....
things sonia learned today:
-people think of me as a following push over
-i can be a fucking smart ass and its going to show.... oh its going to fucking show
-a lot of people find me bitchy
-i am really tired so i should go to bed
-when i get really pissed off i type faster and start shaking.....