One More Day, One More Time
Well, I ended up getting my way today. My mother came and got me during second block, and she also got me my medicine. But... then after I took it... and it kinda worked... like medicine SHOULD.... she told me I must have been faking it because I suddenly felt better.... wtf? lol Whatever... that's my mother for ya!
I'm workin on a letter to my mother about Josh... so anyone who knows him and has anything GOOD to say about him that would help me out... COMMENT DANGIT!! I would LOOVE the help... even though the letter is already five pages long... with a couple Bible verses on Love... smart idea to get inside my Christian mother's mind!! I think I'm going to send part of it to Josh and let him see some of the feelings he doesn't normally get to see.... it kinda scares me to know that he'll know what I'm feeling. I mean, I don't care at all what my mother figure thinks, but... I care what Josh think.... :-\
Hmm... what else to talk about? The more I stay home, the more I find myself with nothing to talk of. I need to get back in school. I can't wait till I get outta high school and move to New York. It's going to kick butt. I mean, I love everyone here, but dang it, I'm going to Julliard and apparently, I'm takin Josh and Jessica. But, I have no problem living with them... now... they just gotta get used to living with eachother... hmmm... hahaha Who would I room with?? *whispers -- joshua*
Hmm... he seems to be all I talk of... and how often does he talk of me? The whole one sentance thing in his journal of jealousy. Ugly thing. But... I hope he's over that, 'cuz I love him!! hehe
Josh,
I know that sometimes... I get annoying and that I dont talk a lot and I get... retarded... but I really do love you so much. I just wish that you knew how much. I love how we understand eachother most of the time, and when I don't understand something, you're always there to explain it in terms that I will. I love you Josh.... more than anything.