Lonely
Here it is 12:21 and I can't sleep. Since my EX left me I have gotten use to sleeping alone, and in a way it was nice mainly because it was by my choice I keep it that way. Not that I didn't have a few girls I spent some time with, just none of them felt comfortable sleeping with. I just can't share my bed at nite with any girl.
But now my room is filled with a scent of some one special. I know it's kinda corny and a little stupid but I enjoy the scent of a women. Well some of them, the ones that know how to take care of them selves. I know a few that don't, EW! Every girl has a different smell to her and no I am not talking BO! just a suttle sweet smell.
I have found some one that I really enjoy spending most of my time with. Some one that has begun to become a big part of my life.
The shity part is she had to work tonite. Till 2am!
I am dead tired but wide awake. Something tells me I will be up till 2?
Had a great weekend whit the kids. But I don't remember a time I didn't have a good time with them. I wish I could have them all the time.
Chance is starting to become a hand full. He is so full of energy that some times it's hard to keep up with him. Kala is still her sweet self, but becoming more of a Daddys Girl every day. Derek is always here, quite, but always around. He loves spending time on his comp playing games with his friends. I have caught him looking at porn a lately, he has a think for red headed lesbian sluts?? At least he has good tastes!!
Ashle is a different story. I haven't seen much of her and I think a big part of it is her mother has started to convince her that she needs to be with her mother because a Daddy doesn't understand the things a girl goes through as she turns into a women. A few weeks ago all the kids were over her on a Thursday nite because there was no school on Friday. Ashely was watching the others when I was at work on Friday and she got mad and said she was just pushing the door closed with her foot but she did it hard enough to put a hole in it the size of her foot. I didn't get mad at her and scream and yell. But since then she hasn't talked to me much and hasn't came over at all. She told me that I treat her like shit and that I don't belive her that she didn't mean to put a hole in the door. I told her it don't matter if she meant to or not, she did it! I told her as soon as she felt like treating me right and not pulling that crap to call me. I haven't heard from her in over a week?
Well I guess I am off to toss and turn till Amber gets off work and snuggles back up agents me.............
But now my room is filled with a scent of some one special. I know it's kinda corny and a little stupid but I enjoy the scent of a women. Well some of them, the ones that know how to take care of them selves. I know a few that don't, EW! Every girl has a different smell to her and no I am not talking BO! just a suttle sweet smell.
I have found some one that I really enjoy spending most of my time with. Some one that has begun to become a big part of my life.
The shity part is she had to work tonite. Till 2am!
I am dead tired but wide awake. Something tells me I will be up till 2?
Had a great weekend whit the kids. But I don't remember a time I didn't have a good time with them. I wish I could have them all the time.
Chance is starting to become a hand full. He is so full of energy that some times it's hard to keep up with him. Kala is still her sweet self, but becoming more of a Daddys Girl every day. Derek is always here, quite, but always around. He loves spending time on his comp playing games with his friends. I have caught him looking at porn a lately, he has a think for red headed lesbian sluts?? At least he has good tastes!!
Ashle is a different story. I haven't seen much of her and I think a big part of it is her mother has started to convince her that she needs to be with her mother because a Daddy doesn't understand the things a girl goes through as she turns into a women. A few weeks ago all the kids were over her on a Thursday nite because there was no school on Friday. Ashely was watching the others when I was at work on Friday and she got mad and said she was just pushing the door closed with her foot but she did it hard enough to put a hole in it the size of her foot. I didn't get mad at her and scream and yell. But since then she hasn't talked to me much and hasn't came over at all. She told me that I treat her like shit and that I don't belive her that she didn't mean to put a hole in the door. I told her it don't matter if she meant to or not, she did it! I told her as soon as she felt like treating me right and not pulling that crap to call me. I haven't heard from her in over a week?
Well I guess I am off to toss and turn till Amber gets off work and snuggles back up agents me.............