i am my own barbie.
ok, so, i havent ranted in awhile and thought, what the hell? might as well share my rants with the universe that is the internet. listening to music, playing online. i really shouldnt be. i have homework, i have a chemistry test on wednesday and a lab on tuesday and homework everyday in spanish and a quiz on tuesday and a quiz everyday in EMS. lots. but honestly? i really dont care. i dont care anymore. i can fail, i can flunk out of college and be a mcdonalds worker for the rest of my life and not care. whats the point. we only live once, why waste the whole thing in school. i just want to get married, have kids and never have to think again. tim can support me. not that i would allow him to. i would support myself and he would support himself and we would support the kids. i plan on having three. all boys im sure.
I hate present day image of perfection. Barbie for example. she is a skanky white slut that is skinny and buff and perfect and never has to do her make up because it is always there. there isnt an ounce of fat on her whorey little body. and magazine covers are computerized and fixed up and tucked in. what the fuck? what, like the starving model isnt enough? she has the bags under her eyes because she throws up everything she eats or doesnt eat at all and that is her body saying something is wrong. and what do you do? put it in the computer and fix it and take even more weight off of her 30 lb body and tell her she needs to lose ten pounds. is it ever gonna be enough? im not beautiful. i know that. but i dont try to be something im not. i am pretty. i am pretty to myself and i really dont give a fuck if you dont think so. other people say im pretty and i dont care if they are biased. they see me for me and are still there and therefore i am pretty and i am good enough. if i am not good enough for you that go fuck yourself and stay away from me. i am just fine the way i am. yes, i go to the gym, but that is for me. not the pple around me. i dont care if my bf says i need to lose weight, fuck him. he isnt perfect either, he weighs a lot more than i do even considering his height. i am just fine the way i am thank you very much and if you dont think so then go fuck yourself because that makes you not a very pretty person. it takes more than physical beauty to make a person pretty.
I hate present day image of perfection. Barbie for example. she is a skanky white slut that is skinny and buff and perfect and never has to do her make up because it is always there. there isnt an ounce of fat on her whorey little body. and magazine covers are computerized and fixed up and tucked in. what the fuck? what, like the starving model isnt enough? she has the bags under her eyes because she throws up everything she eats or doesnt eat at all and that is her body saying something is wrong. and what do you do? put it in the computer and fix it and take even more weight off of her 30 lb body and tell her she needs to lose ten pounds. is it ever gonna be enough? im not beautiful. i know that. but i dont try to be something im not. i am pretty. i am pretty to myself and i really dont give a fuck if you dont think so. other people say im pretty and i dont care if they are biased. they see me for me and are still there and therefore i am pretty and i am good enough. if i am not good enough for you that go fuck yourself and stay away from me. i am just fine the way i am. yes, i go to the gym, but that is for me. not the pple around me. i dont care if my bf says i need to lose weight, fuck him. he isnt perfect either, he weighs a lot more than i do even considering his height. i am just fine the way i am thank you very much and if you dont think so then go fuck yourself because that makes you not a very pretty person. it takes more than physical beauty to make a person pretty.