I'm still not tired after taking sleeping pills.
I can't find a partner to do my spanish project with and one of my residents told me that I let people walk all over me...and I feel so crushed over both things.
My resident is totally right about how I let people walk all over me. And I'm only some stupid bitch in my spanish class, it's no wonder that no one asked me to be in a group with them.
I don't know why I'm so crushed that no one asked me to be in their group and that I couldn't seem to find the courage to ask anyone else.
I guess I've just been feeling this widening distance between myself and...I don't even know. The entire outside world.
We only need to cook food or some bullshit like that. I even have access to a kitchen on campus. It's only one fucking dish and it's somehow turned into the poster child of my inability to properly socialize. I feel like the vast majority of the people I talk with on a regular basis are the people who are forced to be around me.
I do feel unwanted. I don't feel like people dislike having me around, but maybe don't prefer my company. Or at least prefer other's over mine. No wonder people don't think twice about sending me a goddamn email about a fucking event I decided I wanted to go to. And the event was optional.
Have you ever noticed that "being the bigger person" almost always involves letting people walk all over you?
Fuck that.
My resident is totally right about how I let people walk all over me. And I'm only some stupid bitch in my spanish class, it's no wonder that no one asked me to be in a group with them.
I don't know why I'm so crushed that no one asked me to be in their group and that I couldn't seem to find the courage to ask anyone else.
I guess I've just been feeling this widening distance between myself and...I don't even know. The entire outside world.
We only need to cook food or some bullshit like that. I even have access to a kitchen on campus. It's only one fucking dish and it's somehow turned into the poster child of my inability to properly socialize. I feel like the vast majority of the people I talk with on a regular basis are the people who are forced to be around me.
I do feel unwanted. I don't feel like people dislike having me around, but maybe don't prefer my company. Or at least prefer other's over mine. No wonder people don't think twice about sending me a goddamn email about a fucking event I decided I wanted to go to. And the event was optional.
Have you ever noticed that "being the bigger person" almost always involves letting people walk all over you?
Fuck that.