Sentimental.
I feel as though by releasing Josh, I've come to terms with a much larger reality. I have so many opportunities right now. Socially, I don't have to devote my weekends to one person. Of course, I didn't mind them being devoted, but now that I have a break from commitment...I can just breathe, and see who I want to when I want to, with no intimacy required.
Don't get me wrong. I'm a generally intimate person; I like to be close with the friends that I have. Few that they are, the people who I really love and confide in are actual partners who will not leave with high school. But it's nice right now to focus on myself, my development, my independence. No one will ever take that away from me, even when I'm in a relationship.
Surprisingly, I'm not lonely. At the moment I'm kinda cranky, but that's just because I'm sick (again) and with a combined fever and cough, my body is pleading guilty in the pain department. But yeah. Lonely. I want to have some adventures this year, and they might require company. But for now, I'm content to concentrate on schoolwork and college shit.
Apparently, my voice is different now. Apparently, it's not just plain old different sounding, but radically different sounding, and who knows if this is a bad thing? We shall see.
As I said, adventures WILL happen this year. And anyone who can make it possible or be an accomplice, the sign up sheet is here.
Don't get me wrong. I'm a generally intimate person; I like to be close with the friends that I have. Few that they are, the people who I really love and confide in are actual partners who will not leave with high school. But it's nice right now to focus on myself, my development, my independence. No one will ever take that away from me, even when I'm in a relationship.
Surprisingly, I'm not lonely. At the moment I'm kinda cranky, but that's just because I'm sick (again) and with a combined fever and cough, my body is pleading guilty in the pain department. But yeah. Lonely. I want to have some adventures this year, and they might require company. But for now, I'm content to concentrate on schoolwork and college shit.
Apparently, my voice is different now. Apparently, it's not just plain old different sounding, but radically different sounding, and who knows if this is a bad thing? We shall see.
As I said, adventures WILL happen this year. And anyone who can make it possible or be an accomplice, the sign up sheet is here.