yeeeah.
I just had an epiphany. Well, not so much an epiphany, as a need to talk about something.
I don't know why people are friends with me. From my point of view, I'm a loud, insecure, greedy, untrustworthy, assbag.
Hell, most the people that I'm friendly with should probably hate me. I'm an asshole to people unless they give me something I want. Maybe it's their fault or maybe it's mine, but alot of them don't realize how much I use them. I used to think that there was no point in being friendly to people if you didn't actually like them. Then I realized that everyone had so much potential to heighten my own corpulence. Tools, if you will.
Of course there are a few people that I really truly like, even though I might not admit it or act like I do. You probably know who you are. Though, I'm an ass even to people I really do consider my friends. I try act like a real friend, but I usually can't control myself in any sort of way.
But, you know, I have no ill will against anyone usually. I get angry quickly, but in the same fashion, it passes quickly. Maybe that's just part of my personality, or I'm just fooling myself. I am wishing for the day that I will actually act out on my anger. When I do, I'll probably be put in prison.
I don't know why people are friends with me. From my point of view, I'm a loud, insecure, greedy, untrustworthy, assbag.
Hell, most the people that I'm friendly with should probably hate me. I'm an asshole to people unless they give me something I want. Maybe it's their fault or maybe it's mine, but alot of them don't realize how much I use them. I used to think that there was no point in being friendly to people if you didn't actually like them. Then I realized that everyone had so much potential to heighten my own corpulence. Tools, if you will.
Of course there are a few people that I really truly like, even though I might not admit it or act like I do. You probably know who you are. Though, I'm an ass even to people I really do consider my friends. I try act like a real friend, but I usually can't control myself in any sort of way.
But, you know, I have no ill will against anyone usually. I get angry quickly, but in the same fashion, it passes quickly. Maybe that's just part of my personality, or I'm just fooling myself. I am wishing for the day that I will actually act out on my anger. When I do, I'll probably be put in prison.