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So in my ambien CR induced coma last night, i had a series of crazy (or cray-zeee) dreams. the most vivid and probably most depressing of with involved a dear friend of mine, Tiffany. Last time i talk to Tiff, she had discovered some earth-shattering news and was having problems with her asshole boyfriend. In the dream i had suddenly remembered where she lived after months of failed attempts to call her. i showed up as she was out walking here terrier, sara who was now old and getting greyer. She didn't recognize me at first, but once she did, it was like old times. started out with a half hearted game of tag, lunch with her and her 2 year old daughter, and lots of talking under the stars.
the reality is, i have no idea where tiffany is. she had moved out with her boyfriend, and her family moved into a new house after that. tiff was planning on moving home when she discovered she was pregnant (remember the earth shattering news?). she called me very upset. said she wanted to tell me everything. i begged her to. i wanted to know all of it. i wanted the two of us to sit in the back of my truck like we used to do and just spill everything. we decided to see each other in like in a week or so's time, but she had to reschedule. no problem, just call me. that was when i lost my cell phone. that was over a year ago. maybe two, I'm kinda fuzzy on details. she lives less than a mile away from me and i have no way to get a hold of her.
there is an empty, clenching feeling in my chest every time i think of her. I'd give anything just to know she's ok. all my searching on aim, myspace and aol has been pointless. she changed screen names more often than i change bedsheets none of her old numbers work. It looks like i may have let her go. Tiffany, you meant more to me than you will ever possibly know. wherever you are, i hope things turned out ok. i take solace in the fact that you used to call whenever things got really bad, and you haven't called since. i hope you don't think i bailed on you. i hope you're just busy being a mom.
if you ever read this, please don't hesitate to get a hold of me. until then, you will always be in my heart, but i simply have to take you off my mind. it hurts to much...
matt
the reality is, i have no idea where tiffany is. she had moved out with her boyfriend, and her family moved into a new house after that. tiff was planning on moving home when she discovered she was pregnant (remember the earth shattering news?). she called me very upset. said she wanted to tell me everything. i begged her to. i wanted to know all of it. i wanted the two of us to sit in the back of my truck like we used to do and just spill everything. we decided to see each other in like in a week or so's time, but she had to reschedule. no problem, just call me. that was when i lost my cell phone. that was over a year ago. maybe two, I'm kinda fuzzy on details. she lives less than a mile away from me and i have no way to get a hold of her.
there is an empty, clenching feeling in my chest every time i think of her. I'd give anything just to know she's ok. all my searching on aim, myspace and aol has been pointless. she changed screen names more often than i change bedsheets none of her old numbers work. It looks like i may have let her go. Tiffany, you meant more to me than you will ever possibly know. wherever you are, i hope things turned out ok. i take solace in the fact that you used to call whenever things got really bad, and you haven't called since. i hope you don't think i bailed on you. i hope you're just busy being a mom.
if you ever read this, please don't hesitate to get a hold of me. until then, you will always be in my heart, but i simply have to take you off my mind. it hurts to much...
matt