Ewww
So I feel like shit. Don't really know why. I think I'm just stressed as hell. My chem book hasn't gotten here yet and we have a test next week and I am going to fail without that book, and I really don't want to fail the test, I want to do well in the class. *sigh* I'm just stressed at the moment, and I think that's what makes me depressed. I have such a busy semester that I don't think I'm going to get the time to hang out with my friends like I want to, and that makes me sad. And the thing is, I don't care. I'm not caring about my classes, about anything. I just do. I do it because I know I have to. I am on complete burnout mode. I want something. Something exciting. Something I know I want. But I can't find it. I don't know what it is. But I don't think it's what I'm doing now. I think I need to go make that appointment with the career center so I can figure out what the fuck I want to do with my life. Ugh.
I loved this past weekend. It was wonderful. I love my friends, and people I'm meeting. They're pretty cool. But somehow I just want to shut down and not do any work. Ever. WHY CAN'T I FIGURE OUT WHAT I WANT. If you know what you want to do with your life right now, I hate you. Not really because I don't like you, but because I envy the fact that you are probably enjoying what you are doing, and that you know what you're doing is going to lead you in a certain direction. I have no direction. I have no clues. I am happiest around people. That's all I know.
Now for another day of hell in the form of classes.
I loved this past weekend. It was wonderful. I love my friends, and people I'm meeting. They're pretty cool. But somehow I just want to shut down and not do any work. Ever. WHY CAN'T I FIGURE OUT WHAT I WANT. If you know what you want to do with your life right now, I hate you. Not really because I don't like you, but because I envy the fact that you are probably enjoying what you are doing, and that you know what you're doing is going to lead you in a certain direction. I have no direction. I have no clues. I am happiest around people. That's all I know.
Now for another day of hell in the form of classes.