and after all is lost there is nothing left inside of me.
okay, so i did more today than i have done all vacation so far, lol. i babysat my little brother kevin this morning. that was a blast...not. went to nicks around 4ish, hung out with him and zach <3 untill maybe 6ish when jones finally decided to show up. we all went to the mall and met up with ashlie and her friend, and left the mall around 8:45. not to much of a productive day...but better than nothing, and hey i got to see zach so it was worth it.
my parents have been being asses latley and i have noticed myself becoming depressive at home again. i just wish things would work out, but i guess that is just to much to ask.
work..ehh. i put in my two weeks notice the other day. i cant stand wendys. i went and talked to kelly at pac sun today and she said that i am defintaly going to be working their this summer. =) to that is a major plus.
zach and i are really good. i love him. i always seem to have a smile on around him, and i get those butterflies still. thats a good thing though right? i just feel that i can actaully be myself around him, and i dont have to try and put on an act to try and impress him. he loves me for me. for once i feel appriciated. i feel loved. i feel wanted. i feel that i am being treated how i should be treated, and i am so greatful that i found him. it really is a blessing. he means the world to me, and i dont know what i would do with out him. he makes me who i am. i dont have to feel embaressed ever, because the stupid things i do makes him smile. he always says the right things at the right time, and makes me feel special. i just love being in his arms, i feel so comfortable. and its the little things he does that makes me love him that much more. he is everything that i wanted in a guy and so much more. i love everything about him, the way he holds my hands..the way he always looks at me and smiles, then usualy asks "what?!" lol..the way he kisses..the way he hugs me..the way he makes me feel about myself when i am around him..everything. i love you so much zach, and i never want to be without you.
* nik
you are my everything zach <3