"i mite get lonely, but i'm not alone..."-----cheetah girls (disney channel)
yea yea yea.. i was watchin the cheetah girls movie on the disney channel just now. i kno im a loser, but i was tired of watchin usher strip down at his concert in puerto rico. so when nothins on.. go to the disney channel.. nice clean stuff to watch.. ok sometimes it can be a tad bit childish .. but hey.. we all need to bring out our inner child every now and then rite? rite!
anyway... i finally got my senior pictures! finally finally! on the 14th business day! and yes i counted. it took them long enough. i got 16 proofs back.. and out of those 16 i like 10 i guess.. so i got some deciding to do. but i guess all in all im glad they came out good. i kno this might sound wierd but i really like the way my teeth look. im so glad i dont have braces or anything.. cuz they look really nice and really white surprisingly. but yea..
so today was kinda chill i guess... i slept at jessicas last nite and we woke up this morning, ate breakfast, played ddr for like.. an hour or so.. worked up a major sweat, and then decided to go to sweet tomatoes and a movie at around 4-ish. we saw fantastic 4. it was good.. i mean not excellent or amazing.. im not gonna rave about it like i do other movies.. it was just.. good. rasiel and rebeca were supposed to come with us, but of course, time doesnt change anything. it just goes to show no matter how long u dont see or talk to someone, for whatever reason, nothing changes. same old same old. what exactly am i talking about? well jess and i got sold out once again. i mean, im trying sooo hard to mend this little/huge incident that occurred between the two of us, and its like.. yea we talked for like 4 hrs, we hung out the next day.. but.. then what? you cant just fix things in a day. and i think i gave the impression that everything was all hunkey dorey and i think i did that wayyy too soon.. i mean.. i dont really appreciate being stood up time and time again. i mean who does? i dont know anyone who enjoys having someone say or not say for that matter, that they arent, dont want to, or cant, hang out with you. it just sucks. you feel so unimportant or so unwanted or rejected. .i dunno pick a word.. i dont care. but its easy to see where im coming from.. i think. well regardless.. i might be taking this too seriously or whatnot.. but i mean.. damn.. to me this is serious. ive been thinking alot about things lately.. the friends that all the sudden stopped talking to me for whatever reason. have you ever had people that meant something to you just stop talking to you? i mean for whatever reason, which of course you dont kno what it is because its fun to leave the person in suspense and confusion, but i mean.. when you get to a certain age, dont you realize to live and let live.. to learn and let go. but some people can definitely hold some grudges let me tell you. i highly doubt that the people im talkin about actually read this crap of mine anymore, and thats all fine and good, but its hard to tell this to someone. well for me it is. its hard to tell someone that you miss them and you want them to know that their friendship meant alot to you whether they believe you or not. its hard. so thats why i just let it lie here. where it can sit safely. i cant explain how important it is to me that im going into my senior year, and the people that i wanted to spend it with, well.. dont want anything to do with me. what a pathetic feeling huh? well now i feel like crap. i started this entry with a completely different perspective on things, and that just made a complete 180. o well. i gotta just let fate take its course. and whatever will be, will be. i cant do anything more about it.
alright well i guess im gonna get going. im getting a headache from staring at this stupid screen and honestly my patheticness is beginning to disgust me more than ever.
--and the emoness rises again--i knew it would return sooner or later
anyway... i finally got my senior pictures! finally finally! on the 14th business day! and yes i counted. it took them long enough. i got 16 proofs back.. and out of those 16 i like 10 i guess.. so i got some deciding to do. but i guess all in all im glad they came out good. i kno this might sound wierd but i really like the way my teeth look. im so glad i dont have braces or anything.. cuz they look really nice and really white surprisingly. but yea..
so today was kinda chill i guess... i slept at jessicas last nite and we woke up this morning, ate breakfast, played ddr for like.. an hour or so.. worked up a major sweat, and then decided to go to sweet tomatoes and a movie at around 4-ish. we saw fantastic 4. it was good.. i mean not excellent or amazing.. im not gonna rave about it like i do other movies.. it was just.. good. rasiel and rebeca were supposed to come with us, but of course, time doesnt change anything. it just goes to show no matter how long u dont see or talk to someone, for whatever reason, nothing changes. same old same old. what exactly am i talking about? well jess and i got sold out once again. i mean, im trying sooo hard to mend this little/huge incident that occurred between the two of us, and its like.. yea we talked for like 4 hrs, we hung out the next day.. but.. then what? you cant just fix things in a day. and i think i gave the impression that everything was all hunkey dorey and i think i did that wayyy too soon.. i mean.. i dont really appreciate being stood up time and time again. i mean who does? i dont know anyone who enjoys having someone say or not say for that matter, that they arent, dont want to, or cant, hang out with you. it just sucks. you feel so unimportant or so unwanted or rejected. .i dunno pick a word.. i dont care. but its easy to see where im coming from.. i think. well regardless.. i might be taking this too seriously or whatnot.. but i mean.. damn.. to me this is serious. ive been thinking alot about things lately.. the friends that all the sudden stopped talking to me for whatever reason. have you ever had people that meant something to you just stop talking to you? i mean for whatever reason, which of course you dont kno what it is because its fun to leave the person in suspense and confusion, but i mean.. when you get to a certain age, dont you realize to live and let live.. to learn and let go. but some people can definitely hold some grudges let me tell you. i highly doubt that the people im talkin about actually read this crap of mine anymore, and thats all fine and good, but its hard to tell this to someone. well for me it is. its hard to tell someone that you miss them and you want them to know that their friendship meant alot to you whether they believe you or not. its hard. so thats why i just let it lie here. where it can sit safely. i cant explain how important it is to me that im going into my senior year, and the people that i wanted to spend it with, well.. dont want anything to do with me. what a pathetic feeling huh? well now i feel like crap. i started this entry with a completely different perspective on things, and that just made a complete 180. o well. i gotta just let fate take its course. and whatever will be, will be. i cant do anything more about it.
alright well i guess im gonna get going. im getting a headache from staring at this stupid screen and honestly my patheticness is beginning to disgust me more than ever.
--and the emoness rises again--i knew it would return sooner or later