More about the bitchy tape
I'm dubbing a copy of the bitchy tape for myself now. Printed out the new liner notes, with the new title. The old title was "Survival & Bliss," a line taken from the Alanis Morissette song "Precious Illusions." The names of both sides of the tape ("Who I'm Not" and "Who I Am") are taken from that song as well, and when I first envisioned the tape, I think I had a whole concept thing going on. It didn't turn out that way, and the tape got renamed "Drunk Enough" from Veruca Salt's "Disconnected" ("... finish the fairy tale that you were drunk enough to start ..."). I guess that happened because "Disconnected" was really speaking to me yesterday. Specifically, "... you will never have the chance to trace my features and you won't ever make me feel like such a loser ..." Trying to find that place of pissed-off-ness ... not even pissed-off-ness ... but that desire to fucking defend myself ... I had been pondering this idea all summer, and then somehow it just went right out the window. I need to learn how to defend myself. I need to learn how to stand up for myself. I need to learn how to not let other people make me feel like such a loser ...