I'm still pretty overwhelmingly sad. I woke up crying again. I actually spent most of yesterday just lying on the couch and crying. I went to Joseph's show last night and ran into Joel there and talked to him about it -- I basically told him the same thing that I told
n0thingman, which is that maybe that's just what I need to do for right now.
I've had Suzanne Vega's "
Cracking" stuck in my head for two days now. I'm not usually much for posting lyrics on my LJ, but what the hell ...
It's a one time thing
It just happens
A lot
Walk with me
And we will see
What we have got
My footsteps are ticking
Like water dripping from a tree
Walking a hairline
And stepping very carefully
My heart is broken
It's worn out at the knees
Hearing muffled
Seeing blind
Soon it will hit the DEEP FREEZE
And something is cracking
I don't know where
Ice on the sidewalk
Brittle branches
In the air
The sun
Is blinding
Dizzy golden, dancing green
Through the park in the afternoon
Wondering where the hell
I have been