i want what i can't have.

[hopeyoudance]

i hate how well he knows me but barely knows me at all. i want someone to know that i love the freckles along my top lip and to love them too, to know all the words i hate and try their hardest not to say them around me, i want someone to care about the roadkill we see on the side of the road, i want someone to love that i talk back to and yell at television programs, movies, and books. i want someone to love that i can get so entrenched in a television program, movie, book that i feel like that person's problems are my problems. that i have a hard time disassociating myself with that made up world. i want someone to understand why rain makes me feel like crying and that i feel like my hands are too big for my wrists.

i want someone to love me more than i love him because i don't think i know what that feels like; i'm always the one to love too hard and too much. i want someone who won't play games. i want someone to rescue me, but know that sometimes i need to take care of myself and be stubborn and pig-headed and a lioness.

i want someone to love all the little, stupid, annoying, quirky things about me that i don't think anyone even takes the time to notice.

i want someone who won't leave me.