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im afraid
of everything that i cant say out loud
about the deep secrets only my heart knows
how no one really understands whats going on
and how theres no one to really share it with
hiding from the one thing that could set me free
afraid it'll just set me back
about how you'll never really know how i truly felt
and how it would have never make a difference anyway
of the thoughts and memories in my head
and how they tease me with hope in these hopeless situations
about this life i try so hard to live
and fail miserably all the time

im afraid
of the end