I think I have Insomnia...
or maybe it's just that like a dumbass I took two Valium earlier b/c I had no weed and thought it would be a good idea...now I can't fucking sleep. I knew there was a reason I don't take pills........ anywho
It's been way too fucking long since I updated...a lot of shit has happened since then. The most important to me being the struggle to keep the best thing I've ever had. Nick disappointed me by running from the problems instead of letting me be there for him, but it's his life. If he wants to be alone, I can't stop him. We had a long and emotional chat outside of his work last week and I guess we are working it out from there. All I know is that I care about him so much and what we have (no matter what we call it) is worth fighting for. Jeez...this is why I usually don't have relationships. But at least I can say that this is our first arguement about anything and it wasn't really ugly at all. I just want things back to normal...*sigh*
I have been having a good summer other than that though. I didn't talk to Jez for a while, but it was good for us both. Now we are doing good again. Haha actually the other night we ended up spending the night with Watts, Hassey, (Dickless)Nick, and Mike Carter b/c they are house sitting for Geoff's family. That was interesting. Jez got shit faced and Val came for a while and made Jez mad and I thought they were gonna brawl. But Val left and all was well. We slept in a sleep number bed and it was awesome! Too bad I had to get up at 7 b/c I had to go to court....BLEH! But the case is dismissed so I'm all good. But I did leave my shoes at their house...
I have been spending massive amounts of time at Carole's house. Like weeks at a time I'm over there chilling with her and the neighbors. They are awesome. Community smoke outs!!! And they are just good people, make you feel good, and loved, and important. Plus I love my lil Rena. She is the most beautiful baby in the world. I'm so glad she doesn't look like her daddy! And I love being with Carole. I love her so much. We do such fun stuff together. She came to chill with me and my bro last night b/c we are house sitting for his friend. Well, we ended up rollin over to Geoff's to get my shoes. And chilling with the boys some more and stealing a road sign and leaving it on the porch....hahaha. I had forgotten how cool everyone is.
So I guess I've been having a good summer. I just wish everything would settle into place with Nick and getting a job (yes...I quit gay ass food lion). Then I'd be straight and everything would be wonderful. And I really need to post some pics on here and myspace...yah, that shit is pretttttty old. But anyways...lemme go try and sleep b/c now Carole is passed out in the recliner, Serena is passed out in her lil carrier, and my bro is passed out in the bedroom. I'm the only one awake....and I need to get sleepy. Love to everyone....
It's been way too fucking long since I updated...a lot of shit has happened since then. The most important to me being the struggle to keep the best thing I've ever had. Nick disappointed me by running from the problems instead of letting me be there for him, but it's his life. If he wants to be alone, I can't stop him. We had a long and emotional chat outside of his work last week and I guess we are working it out from there. All I know is that I care about him so much and what we have (no matter what we call it) is worth fighting for. Jeez...this is why I usually don't have relationships. But at least I can say that this is our first arguement about anything and it wasn't really ugly at all. I just want things back to normal...*sigh*
I have been having a good summer other than that though. I didn't talk to Jez for a while, but it was good for us both. Now we are doing good again. Haha actually the other night we ended up spending the night with Watts, Hassey, (Dickless)Nick, and Mike Carter b/c they are house sitting for Geoff's family. That was interesting. Jez got shit faced and Val came for a while and made Jez mad and I thought they were gonna brawl. But Val left and all was well. We slept in a sleep number bed and it was awesome! Too bad I had to get up at 7 b/c I had to go to court....BLEH! But the case is dismissed so I'm all good. But I did leave my shoes at their house...
I have been spending massive amounts of time at Carole's house. Like weeks at a time I'm over there chilling with her and the neighbors. They are awesome. Community smoke outs!!! And they are just good people, make you feel good, and loved, and important. Plus I love my lil Rena. She is the most beautiful baby in the world. I'm so glad she doesn't look like her daddy! And I love being with Carole. I love her so much. We do such fun stuff together. She came to chill with me and my bro last night b/c we are house sitting for his friend. Well, we ended up rollin over to Geoff's to get my shoes. And chilling with the boys some more and stealing a road sign and leaving it on the porch....hahaha. I had forgotten how cool everyone is.
So I guess I've been having a good summer. I just wish everything would settle into place with Nick and getting a job (yes...I quit gay ass food lion). Then I'd be straight and everything would be wonderful. And I really need to post some pics on here and myspace...yah, that shit is pretttttty old. But anyways...lemme go try and sleep b/c now Carole is passed out in the recliner, Serena is passed out in her lil carrier, and my bro is passed out in the bedroom. I'm the only one awake....and I need to get sleepy. Love to everyone....