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Running on empty once again
Too tired for tears I dread
Sink deep into those magic dreams
While I blast off in my bed
Wow, so LJ was being gay yesterday so I didn't get to update...so I guess here goes...
Monday
I had the worst friggin day ever at school...it just sucked so much ass it wasn't even funny. And then I was sad b/c I had to go home and go to my community service meeting(which didn't happen b/c the woman was out sick and didn't bother to call). So I came home from that and had a hellacious arguement with my mothers...gag. So I called Jez to vent about it and she said she and Eduardo would come see me. I didn't want to have to be around my parents(let alone have company around them) so we chilled at the playground(sad, I know). I had a really good time and it was really nice. Eduardo showed us his pole dancing skills on the tether ball pole. We see-sawed..and then Eduardo tried to sit on me in the swing and we bout fell. But then Jez got on the phone w/ one of her many men and he was acting really flirty towards me. I mean, she has no claim, but I didn't want to do anything since they are "make-out buddies." But I know we were like cuddling in the swing and she looked kinda pissed and then like out the blue she's like "We have to go Eduardo..like now." And I felt bad about it but then I remebered how much she's been talkin about how she doesn't like him so I decided not to feel guilty. But then I talked to Mike for a while before I went to work and he seemed pissed that I didn't go over there that day but I mean, I couldn't help it...So Monday was just kinda gay...
Tuesday
So it was no better than Monday. I got asked to not be the editor of the newspaper anymore...and I was kinda relieved, but then again sad. But it's over and I'm done with that. I'm supposed to still work on layouts and write, but I dunno...I never got the recognition I deserved and so I'm over it... But once again I had anohter hellacious convo with my mom and she actually let me go out when it was all over. I went to eat dinner with Jez and we had a good time, but she was acting funny and then out of nowhere was just like "okay, well, it's been fun but I've got stuff to do." wtf? So I was a lil pissed about that and then I talked to Mike and he made me feel a little better(after he got done being an ass, that is). And then I just got mad again b/c of a bunch of bullshit and I wrote this really emotional blog on myspace...lol.
Today
So then today...it started off really good, and I guess it hasn't been too shabby. Me, Jez and Noel went to McDonalds and then met up with Jesica and Brooke and chilled for a while before we wnt back to school. What was bad was that I just hate fucking drama and I got it. I was asked to do all this editing stuff and I got pissed b/c that is no longer my job..so FUCK THAT! They won't survive without me and I really don't care. Don't ask me not to be editor then expect me to do the same job with no title...FUCK YALL! Then I was gonna go chill with Jez and Eduardo, but she didn't want me to go. And he thought it was fucked up and told me I should talk to her so I did and it was so gay. she finally admitted that she likes him and now I dunno wtf I'm supposed to do b/c I can't stop him from flirting and shit and this always happens...she doesn't want commitments, she doesn't want attachments, I want a nice guy and she fuckin finds some way to play the poor hurt victim when she gets attached... lrfgh;sIRHG;ihSRDhgs:IRHgikFUCK! Wow...I mean, I don't know him well enough to like him, but I don't want to miss out on chilling with him and everything b/c it makes her feel uncomfortable. She told me she wants me to talk to him and chill with him, but I don't think that was true. wtf? And now she says we have to talk later but not now b/c she's with him. *rolls eyes* I can't wait for that. I wonder how many more things can go wrong before I have a complete breakdown...time will only tell.
Wow..I sound psycho...oh well, my life is kinda sucking right now so....I can be psycho if I want. At least I get to go stay with Carole this weekend♥. And then I think my parents are going out of town the weekend after that, so I can do what the fuck I want to. God I just need to get away...anyways...lemme try to keep my head up and smile, I know it will all pass sooner or later.
Too tired for tears I dread
Sink deep into those magic dreams
While I blast off in my bed
Wow, so LJ was being gay yesterday so I didn't get to update...so I guess here goes...
Monday
I had the worst friggin day ever at school...it just sucked so much ass it wasn't even funny. And then I was sad b/c I had to go home and go to my community service meeting(which didn't happen b/c the woman was out sick and didn't bother to call). So I came home from that and had a hellacious arguement with my mothers...gag. So I called Jez to vent about it and she said she and Eduardo would come see me. I didn't want to have to be around my parents(let alone have company around them) so we chilled at the playground(sad, I know). I had a really good time and it was really nice. Eduardo showed us his pole dancing skills on the tether ball pole. We see-sawed..and then Eduardo tried to sit on me in the swing and we bout fell. But then Jez got on the phone w/ one of her many men and he was acting really flirty towards me. I mean, she has no claim, but I didn't want to do anything since they are "make-out buddies." But I know we were like cuddling in the swing and she looked kinda pissed and then like out the blue she's like "We have to go Eduardo..like now." And I felt bad about it but then I remebered how much she's been talkin about how she doesn't like him so I decided not to feel guilty. But then I talked to Mike for a while before I went to work and he seemed pissed that I didn't go over there that day but I mean, I couldn't help it...So Monday was just kinda gay...
Tuesday
So it was no better than Monday. I got asked to not be the editor of the newspaper anymore...and I was kinda relieved, but then again sad. But it's over and I'm done with that. I'm supposed to still work on layouts and write, but I dunno...I never got the recognition I deserved and so I'm over it... But once again I had anohter hellacious convo with my mom and she actually let me go out when it was all over. I went to eat dinner with Jez and we had a good time, but she was acting funny and then out of nowhere was just like "okay, well, it's been fun but I've got stuff to do." wtf? So I was a lil pissed about that and then I talked to Mike and he made me feel a little better(after he got done being an ass, that is). And then I just got mad again b/c of a bunch of bullshit and I wrote this really emotional blog on myspace...lol.
Today
So then today...it started off really good, and I guess it hasn't been too shabby. Me, Jez and Noel went to McDonalds and then met up with Jesica and Brooke and chilled for a while before we wnt back to school. What was bad was that I just hate fucking drama and I got it. I was asked to do all this editing stuff and I got pissed b/c that is no longer my job..so FUCK THAT! They won't survive without me and I really don't care. Don't ask me not to be editor then expect me to do the same job with no title...FUCK YALL! Then I was gonna go chill with Jez and Eduardo, but she didn't want me to go. And he thought it was fucked up and told me I should talk to her so I did and it was so gay. she finally admitted that she likes him and now I dunno wtf I'm supposed to do b/c I can't stop him from flirting and shit and this always happens...she doesn't want commitments, she doesn't want attachments, I want a nice guy and she fuckin finds some way to play the poor hurt victim when she gets attached... lrfgh;sIRHG;ihSRDhgs:IRHgikFUCK! Wow...I mean, I don't know him well enough to like him, but I don't want to miss out on chilling with him and everything b/c it makes her feel uncomfortable. She told me she wants me to talk to him and chill with him, but I don't think that was true. wtf? And now she says we have to talk later but not now b/c she's with him. *rolls eyes* I can't wait for that. I wonder how many more things can go wrong before I have a complete breakdown...time will only tell.
Wow..I sound psycho...oh well, my life is kinda sucking right now so....I can be psycho if I want. At least I get to go stay with Carole this weekend♥. And then I think my parents are going out of town the weekend after that, so I can do what the fuck I want to. God I just need to get away...anyways...lemme try to keep my head up and smile, I know it will all pass sooner or later.