IMPORANT !
so im going to boarding school. i had family therpy today and we decided things at home are not going to smooth and havnt been for the last two years.i hit bottem low and got back up and now i feel as if im gunna crash again.so im apolgize if i havnt been myself or iv jst been like a peice of shit latly.They( harmony heights) are setting up a cse meeting with mt.sinai school district tomorow to set up arrangements for my intake.the school isnt to far away actaully its in Oyster Bay Area.Ill be home everyweekend after i get my level but untill then ill be there everyday. I think this will work the best for me.Truthfully im scared to what will happen in the next year.Its not that i dont love my family its just we dont get along and before we all wold do something one of us might regret im getting out.LIke my sisters and brothers all are living there life.not to what they want to be doing.they have to work jobs they hate just to pay bills they live there life they way they do just to get by.I dont want to do that.Im sick of fucking up/ i want to gradaute highschool knowing i accomplished everything i wanted to.When i apply for collage i want to do it for me and for me only i want to major in somethingi know i can have a future in.I dont know ..But im going to miss alot of you.I know im only a car ride away but still ..Its going to be differnt.I Jst hope my friends will stick by me and support me in this.This is also probablly shocking to alot bc i never really open up but ..its what i need for me.im sick of giving its time i pay attention to me as selfish as it may sound