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[hopeluz_micmiss]

im done with this game
so much for feeling special
feel different one second, feel the same as everyone else another
that shits not cool
letdown becomes another chapter in a storybook you cant stop reading over and over
jumping to conclusions, continuous routines; habits that beg to be broken
feeling used, well feeling like shit
its like bullies from elementary school
their plan is to make you feel accepted, like you are their friend
but then they turn right around and try to embarass you or hurt you
its a slap in the face
how is this any different?
maybe this is an accident, at least thats what im telling myself
but it tips to both sides, this repeated pattern
the biggest trick your mind can play on you is when you tell yourself what you want to hear
maybe im suffering in the same way, but theres no way to know
and i cant get any answers, so where am i getting
confusions a bitch when you dont understand yourself or your feelings
why would i not want to quit? i dont get it
even if i get hurt, im still upset when its their turn, and i give in
why should i have the sympathy? theres been none for me
its all getting quite old
i feel like sitting out, but i cant take that first step
im tired of being a victim