my dads really pissing me the fuck off
man, ive been talking to a lot of friends lately about everything....and gah, valentines day is coming up. yeah, what a bummer. i was talking to scott arico about it today after 4th and he talked about how it was gonna bring him down, and then i realized "hey, me too". yeah....valentines day....for me, nothing special. oh well. :-\ i'd really kill to look forward to valentines with someone, but yeah, thats the thing im lacking.
another thing thats really been talked about the last cpl weeks: prom. dude...i wanna go to prom! but yeah....fuck that too. if i ever go to prom, it'll probably be with a friend just for the sake of hanging out, not with a bf or "guy friend" to actually spend a "meaningful" night together. gah, life can really be a bummer damnit. i might go to prom with jamie this year since its his senior year, but idk yet. still, he's my friend. and gosh....i wanna go to prom :-\
bdays coming up, actually its exactly 2 weeks from today, and ive realized a lot of things ive wanted (which would be awesome bday presents), things that arent tangible, are things im never gonna get. they just arent gonna happen the way i had hoped or they arent at all. confusing? yes i know. you would just have to get me to explain it to you to understand what i mean. but yeah, from this side of things, what a sweet 16....
ok, needed time for a little girly emo post to release stuff lol. i love my journals <3
leave me a lil sumn, its great to see friends/ppl i care about comment
...valerie+kay...