Orange Sky
When I am alone
When I’ve thrown off the weight of this crazy stone
When I've lost all care for the things I own
That's when I miss you, that's when I miss you, that's when I miss you
You who are my home
You who are my home
And here is what I know now
Here is what I know now
Goes like this..
In your love, my salvation lies...
-Alexi Murdoch
I love the last line in that stanza! That song in itself reminds me of Jordan, but then again there are like 20 or songs off the top of my head that remind me of him (ahah). I was listening to the soft melody of the song and got caught up in it. I started thinking about my relationship with Jordan. No please don't this as arrogance, I'm sure there are plenty of you who feel the same way about your relationship with your husbands (or S/O). I feel like our relationship is so close to perfect. We argue once in a while, get annoyed with one another, and misconstrue what the other is saying or really means...but...we've never gone to bed angry. Even when we lived 2,000 mi away from each other! I had a friend ask me a couple days ago how I knew Jordan was the one...I kind of smiled and started to type this:
He did everything right, without even realizing it. He said all the right things, all the things I wanted to hear and had forgotten about. I had come to accept that I wouldn't find a guy who'd fit my image of what I wanted--realistic as most my image was. Then he left me a note in my Open Diary and the more I talked to him the harder I fell for him.
I didn't have too much of chance to ramble on--hence the length of this entry--but she made a comment about how intense we were in the beginning. While some of the intensity we had in the beginning has simmered down, it's still there. I still feel deep in my soul the attachment I have with this man. I knew, because when I let the idea of being with someone else cross my mind I kept comparing them to Jordan. He was far from perfect, but he was my Prince Charming. For a while my nick-name for him was My Knight, and I was his Princess (lol). Sappy I know, but it was the truth. He may act in a selfish manner sometimes, but if I just bide my time, and bring it up when I know he'll be receptive then he usually admits he was being a jerk and does something special for me to make it up. He's trying to get out of that mind-set he's been in for almost 20 years of his life, I don't expect it to be instant, I'm just glad he's willing to improve himself and seek my advice to do so--as I do with him. Some times I'm just over-come with tears when I think about how much I love that man! He's probably one of the biggest dorks I know, but he's my dork!
Alright enough rambling. I'm sure you all have other things to do, hope everyone had a good weekend, God bless (^_^)_\m