Havent you heard, that Im gunna be okay...?
Kristin has the idea here...
I underestimate my own will power to over come whatever "power" he thinks he has over me. Why? I'm not sure. I never take things for granted, I never not try for something that means a great deal to me... so I know this isn't my fault. It's not my fault, that everytime I see you now I feel sick to my stomach. It's not my fault, that I hang up on you when you call. It's not my fault, that I can't even look at you anymore. None of that is my fault, I'm starting to realize that now.
Coming to the realization that I'm stronger than I think I am, is relieving to me. My friends make me the happiest person alive, so who needs something else to hold on to? All that something else did was bring me pain, tears and hurt. I can't remember the last time I was truly happy with everything, in that relationship and I'm just glad its over.
The relationship is just not working, but it's not me, it's you...
and you suck.