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I know I need to change my ways
but to be completely honest
I dont want to.
I no longer have a reason
to change my ways.
as of right now that is.
I'm haveing fun,
I'm Happy.
and i'm protecting myself from
assholes.
I'm sick of guys
screwing me over
making me believe one thing
but doing the complete opposite.
so i'm keeping to myself
hanging out w/ friends
but not getting to close
and pushing some people away
well to narrow it down
i'm pushing one of my best friends away
he use to be
my reason for changeing my ways
but now
my reason for hurting
my reason for not really caring anymore
my reason for not changeing my ways.
I want to keep him in my life
but i dont trust my feelings
i dont trust myself
not right now i'm to weak
i need him
i want him
but i can't have him the way i want him
and its killing me
so right now its easier for me to give up
then to be let down.
*its just how i feel right now*
*i'm sorry*