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Last night, i did nothing
but it was great!
I spent the night w/ one of my best friends
iv never met anyone like him
and i love him
and trust him w/ all my heart!!
The night was great, we sat around doing nothing
Watchig lost and talking and fighting
about stupid shit
but most of all we laughed
and i had a smileon my face 99% of the time
until this morning at 4am
when the reason i dont want to be in sp
Called me!
Why does he do this
when he is sober he is a complete asshole
and then friday-sunday
he calls me between the hours of
Midnight-5am
wanting to talk
or wanting me to come by him
i dont know what to do about it
i love the kid todeath
but i wontlet myself get hurt
becuz it wont be him hurtting me
it will be me letting myself
or setting myself up to get hurt
and FUCK THAT
Seriously
fuck him if he thinks i'm
going to let him hurt me again
or hurt myself!
"Hurt me once shame on you, Hurt me twice shame on me"
and i will not Shame myself!
but enough w/ that i cried enough about it today
all i can do is
Thank Mike for being there for me
and keeping a smile on my face
i couldn't ask for a better friend!
he is the only person i trust 100%