What if I'm a mermaid in these jeans of hers
Okay so I'm putting the washing the car off because my dad is out putting new speakers and autolock on my car right now. I might have time later but we will have to see.
I'm kind of moppy right now and I don't know if can explain it. I'm like... confused? I don't know, I wanna hang out with someone but then I don't. I wanna go do this then I don't. I keep like talking myself out of doing things. And it's alright now for one because my car is getting worked on I couldn't really go anywhere, unless I took my old car? I don't really wanna do that. I don't know... I know I should call Ashli but I'm like... confused lol I don't know if I really wanna go hang out with her or not. I think that I'm a bad friend. But I mean she could call me if she REALLY wanted to hang out... right? I mean we said we would work it out today. Bleh. And I feel fat. I'm having a horribly fat day. I don't like it. I hate it. And I took the last of my medicine today, so I should be getting better. I need to go workout when I get more strength back. I had a hardtime trying to clean the kitchen the other night lol. -My foot is numb... very numb- I wanna take my dog for a walk. I probably wont lol. I always talk about how I wanna do something but I never do it. Does this qualify me as lazy? I don't really think it's lazy I think that something in my head talks me out of things that I wanna do. Make sense? Sound crazy? OMG I need to go play my guitar I have a lesson coming up and I don't wanna get there and be like... uhhhhh I didn't practice sorry. I have my guitar but I don't have my amp with me, but I can still practice some cords right? Oh man I need to finish my Aerosmith speech. It's easy but I'm just not in the moood.... but honestly... I'm NEVER in the mood. I just need to do it dammit. Ack my stomach hurts. And I'm having a angry moment right now lmao.