i was fine until
i got a text message.
i wish i was better at being angry at people. but im not.
i do not need to be weak right now and talk to him.
it sucks i just want to be over everything and say, hey, i'm cool we can be friends again. but of course im not ready.
i don't want to waste my time over it. over him. over this situation.
i want to waste my time on me, because i need to get better and feel better.
i had to go to barnes and noble today and i was freaking out because i was afriad i was going to see her there, i was actually more angry because i wouldnt know how to react, but luckily she wasnt working.
why can't i be stronger about this?
why does it feel like so much of my time has been wasted?
why can't i be happy and find someone else; someone who will treat me better?
i need to be held and bawl my eyes out.
i feel so pathetic.
i wish i was better at being angry at people. but im not.
i do not need to be weak right now and talk to him.
it sucks i just want to be over everything and say, hey, i'm cool we can be friends again. but of course im not ready.
i don't want to waste my time over it. over him. over this situation.
i want to waste my time on me, because i need to get better and feel better.
i had to go to barnes and noble today and i was freaking out because i was afriad i was going to see her there, i was actually more angry because i wouldnt know how to react, but luckily she wasnt working.
why can't i be stronger about this?
why does it feel like so much of my time has been wasted?
why can't i be happy and find someone else; someone who will treat me better?
i need to be held and bawl my eyes out.
i feel so pathetic.