Realizations
I just found my old blurty from once upon a time (blurty.com/users/greatness2030) and it was nice to go back and read what I thought about. Half of it made me seem really immature, but the other half was insightful and mad me sigh-y. I feel practically the same way, about lots of things. I just need to be open and honest with everyone. Not just about sexuality, about life, about other things, with people, with everyone/everything. First of all, I want to be honest with a few people:
Casey,
I just want to say i'm sorry about the whole ordeal. I'm sure its no fun feeling like someone would rather be anywhereelseintheworld than with you. I did feel that way, but not just with you. With kayla, and brad too. I'm better now(although I still need some time). And although I shouldn't be apologizing (because it's a normal human emotion that I can't control) I want to still be your friend and everything. I just hate that you feel so depressed about things all the time ( i dunno, its a pet peeve of mine or something) but things will be okay soon i'm sure.
Jack,
I want to say that you put(have put me) through the most emotional torement of anyone. You just have the great ability of pushing my buttons (whether you're oblivious to it or not.I don't know.) I wrote a really mean entry about you the other day because you took me off of your friends list and rather'd not have me on yours, and i'm sorry. I was angry with you at the time, but i'm not taking back anything I said.
Brad,
I want to personally thank you. First of all , for being alive. Secondly, for being my friend since idontknowwhen (even if we're not as good of friends as before) but I would still like to be your friend for a long time to come. I have the feeling we're stuck together in some way for the rest of our lives (whether it'd be getting together every few years over coffee with Jacki or what). I would also like to thank you for being so open about my sexuality for me! Haha, that sounds odd, but it made things a whole lot easier, especially with Jacki(and i'm sure there will be some others).
Kayla,
Ever since we fought I have the feeling that I can't trust you like I once did. You used things against me that really hurt, and it made things a lot different(for me at least). I still want to be your friend but I wish that things were like before. Maybe again someday...
Anyone else who has entered my life that I haven't mentioned. I am so glad that i've met every single one of you. Even if we do talk still or don't, I want you all to know that I love you.
There's more to talk about, i'm sure. And i'll get to it, in time. This is the real me and i'm having no restraint. I'm going to be honest from now on.
Casey,
I just want to say i'm sorry about the whole ordeal. I'm sure its no fun feeling like someone would rather be anywhereelseintheworld than with you. I did feel that way, but not just with you. With kayla, and brad too. I'm better now(although I still need some time). And although I shouldn't be apologizing (because it's a normal human emotion that I can't control) I want to still be your friend and everything. I just hate that you feel so depressed about things all the time ( i dunno, its a pet peeve of mine or something) but things will be okay soon i'm sure.
Jack,
I want to say that you put(have put me) through the most emotional torement of anyone. You just have the great ability of pushing my buttons (whether you're oblivious to it or not.I don't know.) I wrote a really mean entry about you the other day because you took me off of your friends list and rather'd not have me on yours, and i'm sorry. I was angry with you at the time, but i'm not taking back anything I said.
Brad,
I want to personally thank you. First of all , for being alive. Secondly, for being my friend since idontknowwhen (even if we're not as good of friends as before) but I would still like to be your friend for a long time to come. I have the feeling we're stuck together in some way for the rest of our lives (whether it'd be getting together every few years over coffee with Jacki or what). I would also like to thank you for being so open about my sexuality for me! Haha, that sounds odd, but it made things a whole lot easier, especially with Jacki(and i'm sure there will be some others).
Kayla,
Ever since we fought I have the feeling that I can't trust you like I once did. You used things against me that really hurt, and it made things a lot different(for me at least). I still want to be your friend but I wish that things were like before. Maybe again someday...
Anyone else who has entered my life that I haven't mentioned. I am so glad that i've met every single one of you. Even if we do talk still or don't, I want you all to know that I love you.
There's more to talk about, i'm sure. And i'll get to it, in time. This is the real me and i'm having no restraint. I'm going to be honest from now on.