Afraid of Change
I've been sitting here crying for the past hour and I'm not even sure why.
Everyone's been very supportive of this new job I was offered.
I'm confident that I would do the job well. I believe that I am extremely capable and willing to learn to do the best that I can. I'm confident that I would get along with the other employees, that I could make friends.
But I'm absolutely afraid that I'll hate it. I don't like sitting in the same spot for 8 hours, doing the same thing over and over again. The more and more I've been trying to figure out what I want to do with my life, the more and more I've realized that I'm not cut out to be a lab monkey. I just don't think that's in my nature. I'm a people person.
And where does this leave me as far as grad school? Do I still apply and hope to start next fall? Or do I have to put that on hold for a couple more years? What kind of programs do I apply to? I don't even know what I want to study or do with my life.
I'm just feeling extremely overwhelmed. I know that I'm going to have to make a decision soon about accepting the position but I don't know how. I realize that I'm extremely lucky to have a job and to be offered another job with the way the economy is. And I'm afraid I'll be kicking myself if I don't take it because of the extra money, but is the extra money really worth it, if I'm not happy?
I don't know what to do.
Everyone's been very supportive of this new job I was offered.
I'm confident that I would do the job well. I believe that I am extremely capable and willing to learn to do the best that I can. I'm confident that I would get along with the other employees, that I could make friends.
But I'm absolutely afraid that I'll hate it. I don't like sitting in the same spot for 8 hours, doing the same thing over and over again. The more and more I've been trying to figure out what I want to do with my life, the more and more I've realized that I'm not cut out to be a lab monkey. I just don't think that's in my nature. I'm a people person.
And where does this leave me as far as grad school? Do I still apply and hope to start next fall? Or do I have to put that on hold for a couple more years? What kind of programs do I apply to? I don't even know what I want to study or do with my life.
I'm just feeling extremely overwhelmed. I know that I'm going to have to make a decision soon about accepting the position but I don't know how. I realize that I'm extremely lucky to have a job and to be offered another job with the way the economy is. And I'm afraid I'll be kicking myself if I don't take it because of the extra money, but is the extra money really worth it, if I'm not happy?
I don't know what to do.