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Somehow I always seem to be getting sick or trying to get over something around this time of year. I suppose if I was smarter I would be a better climate but the more I think about all of them have their flaws... other people live in them. I know I should be sitting at home and resting when I get in these states especially after I was sick for the whole month of January because I didn't act responsibly instead I wanted to go out drinking with Tori most every night. Freakin' girls they'll get me everytime and someday be the death of me I swear... it's fun the ones I like always end up going in the end that's fine though it's just a chance to meet someone new. That's besides the point though.
It's hard to keep spirits up this time of the year. I don't know what it is perhaps it's the season changing it's cold and wet... or maybe it's just another year coming to the end just coming to that point where I'm just worn out from the comings and going of the past year maybe but I doubt it.... it could be the impending holiday season as well but it's nothing I celebrate all that much I'm not especially anti-holiday like most I'm just not particularly close with my family and well celebrating things by yourself just seems pointless. I don't know what perhaps it's the feeling of being sick or just getting over it but there has been the feeling of a void lately... something that's just not there. Feelings have gone a bit gray and I find that I have to force myself to engage in any real conversation with people not because I'm in a pissy mood it's just that I don't find my self drawn to what they have to say. I suppose it's just the empty feeling that comes along from time to time and drinking reading and writing are about the only things that hold that much interest.... not to say I was to absolutely disengage myself from everyone I don't it's just more of a effort to do it.
It's hard to keep spirits up this time of the year. I don't know what it is perhaps it's the season changing it's cold and wet... or maybe it's just another year coming to the end just coming to that point where I'm just worn out from the comings and going of the past year maybe but I doubt it.... it could be the impending holiday season as well but it's nothing I celebrate all that much I'm not especially anti-holiday like most I'm just not particularly close with my family and well celebrating things by yourself just seems pointless. I don't know what perhaps it's the feeling of being sick or just getting over it but there has been the feeling of a void lately... something that's just not there. Feelings have gone a bit gray and I find that I have to force myself to engage in any real conversation with people not because I'm in a pissy mood it's just that I don't find my self drawn to what they have to say. I suppose it's just the empty feeling that comes along from time to time and drinking reading and writing are about the only things that hold that much interest.... not to say I was to absolutely disengage myself from everyone I don't it's just more of a effort to do it.