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[hopelesschild]

i hate reading you this well.....because yes something happened. or yes, you feel someting out of sorts. or yes, you are just randomly placed on edge, more than usual. i don't have to know exactly the

cause, or the precise affect to know its there. and i ask, and it

leads to this. why is wrong that i care? that i hear something in

your voice? i was simply wondering, and simply wish i didn't have to

worry until you talk again. sometimes man.....its so frustratng. i

just want to walk to your door, and deal. because i can't deal until

i know we're okay. or heading toward something. i don't know. i'm

confused, and i hate that feeling.
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totally dif subject.my grandpa came over tday. has skin cancer. icky

thing on his head. maybe just thinking of late. he pointed to me,

and say you.....goodbye. and i told him i love him. and he said i

couldn't beat him, because he loves me first. and when i went over

to give him a hug while everyone was on the porch, he held real

tight and said i really do love you. into my ear. the kind of moment

when you know its serious.when something in their head is more

serious than you knew.........