what the hell????
what the fuck is your problem?
you have no idea.
that rollorcoaster wasn't fun.
it wasn't worth it.
now all i want to do is throw up.
i expected more kind ser.
way to fuck it up.
at least my decision was right.
i always win, right.
what the fuck makes people so stupid. so out of control. so uneasy to read. so wrong in every way. back and forth, and back again. maybe its time to be done with these things. maybe i'm trying to walk away with my whole self still all tangled in this shit. well fuck it. i hate the self gratifying hatred. i hate this feeling. and i hate hanging up on friends, because i can't stand another minute thinking about anything but sterangling you. ita all under questioning. its all questioned. i dont want to see anyone.....but maybe cote. because she's my darling. and she gets me. and i wont have to tlka or explain. just be. maybe kelly. maybe chad. maybe nathan and theresa. maybe nick. maybe its just one face i'm not in the mood for. god. so hard to decide. what the fuck. what the fuck. fuck. shit. god damn it!!!!!!!!! i'm going to go. i'm going to walk the dog. i'm going to be fine. and by fine i sure as hell mean angry.
you have no idea.
that rollorcoaster wasn't fun.
it wasn't worth it.
now all i want to do is throw up.
i expected more kind ser.
way to fuck it up.
at least my decision was right.
i always win, right.
what the fuck makes people so stupid. so out of control. so uneasy to read. so wrong in every way. back and forth, and back again. maybe its time to be done with these things. maybe i'm trying to walk away with my whole self still all tangled in this shit. well fuck it. i hate the self gratifying hatred. i hate this feeling. and i hate hanging up on friends, because i can't stand another minute thinking about anything but sterangling you. ita all under questioning. its all questioned. i dont want to see anyone.....but maybe cote. because she's my darling. and she gets me. and i wont have to tlka or explain. just be. maybe kelly. maybe chad. maybe nathan and theresa. maybe nick. maybe its just one face i'm not in the mood for. god. so hard to decide. what the fuck. what the fuck. fuck. shit. god damn it!!!!!!!!! i'm going to go. i'm going to walk the dog. i'm going to be fine. and by fine i sure as hell mean angry.