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well things started looking up
i worked things out in a few friendships and
relationships that had been sucking
and it seems to be going well
i'm not so stressed about school anymore because
i'm pulling a b+ in ap which rocks my socks off
i am mega excited about christmas so thats ALWAYS good..
i got a new car which makes me feel a lot safer
the only thing that is really stressing me these days is...
thats right, you guessed it...
CHRIS
i have never known someone so...anal and insane
lol nice words to describe your boyfriend huh?
i swear though, the kid must be bipolar.. he makes no sense
he will be HILARIOUS and so much fun or really cute and awesome one second
and then BAM! hes pissed or sad or upset or disappointed
and he "can't talk about it"
or he "doesn't want to start a fight"
but then he won't get over it either.. it just sits there
whatever IT is and gets worse until we are both ready to kill each other
over something that is without fail the gayest thing you have ever thought of fighting about.
its insane. and its now getting to the point where he makes me feel
less, degraded, inadequate when he gets mad, and that
pisses me off more than anything.
so what do i do about it?
see here's the thing, when someone makes you feel like your worthless
it gets in your head and makes you feel like you can't break up with them
because YOU are the one that sucks.
we got in a huge fight last night.
he thinks we worked it out, because he got his way in the end
i'm not happy, but i don't know what to do about it.
its not ALL bad, although it sounds like it in this post,
sometimes are awesome and he is encouraging and fun
but i don't know how to weigh out, what is worth putting up with to the good times
and what is just a waste of my time and energy.
and guess what? he's coming to christmas with me in 2 weeks.
gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
advice is always appreciated if you understood any of that rambling.
in the mean time,
i should date will phillips.
i hope you christmas is wonderful.
i love you!
i worked things out in a few friendships and
relationships that had been sucking
and it seems to be going well
i'm not so stressed about school anymore because
i'm pulling a b+ in ap which rocks my socks off
i am mega excited about christmas so thats ALWAYS good..
i got a new car which makes me feel a lot safer
the only thing that is really stressing me these days is...
thats right, you guessed it...
CHRIS
i have never known someone so...anal and insane
lol nice words to describe your boyfriend huh?
i swear though, the kid must be bipolar.. he makes no sense
he will be HILARIOUS and so much fun or really cute and awesome one second
and then BAM! hes pissed or sad or upset or disappointed
and he "can't talk about it"
or he "doesn't want to start a fight"
but then he won't get over it either.. it just sits there
whatever IT is and gets worse until we are both ready to kill each other
over something that is without fail the gayest thing you have ever thought of fighting about.
its insane. and its now getting to the point where he makes me feel
less, degraded, inadequate when he gets mad, and that
pisses me off more than anything.
so what do i do about it?
see here's the thing, when someone makes you feel like your worthless
it gets in your head and makes you feel like you can't break up with them
because YOU are the one that sucks.
we got in a huge fight last night.
he thinks we worked it out, because he got his way in the end
i'm not happy, but i don't know what to do about it.
its not ALL bad, although it sounds like it in this post,
sometimes are awesome and he is encouraging and fun
but i don't know how to weigh out, what is worth putting up with to the good times
and what is just a waste of my time and energy.
and guess what? he's coming to christmas with me in 2 weeks.
gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
advice is always appreciated if you understood any of that rambling.
in the mean time,
i should date will phillips.
i hope you christmas is wonderful.
i love you!