Jun 19, 2005 09:46
Where to begin...
well.. i havent been around much the past month or so... since school started ive basically dedicated all my time and energy to it.. which if u know me is a bit odd considering i HATE school
but this school is different.. i absolutely love it.
so my first class.. which was the beauty class.. ended a week ago... i did get an A in the class but i wasnt exactly happy about it because almost everyone in the class got an A... and not to sound conceited or bitchy but.. most of those people didnt deserve it..
I dont really care if people think im being big headed and thinking that my work is far better then most.. but u know what.. fuck it.. my work IS better.. and everyone knows it..
Passing that class isnt hard.. but getting an A in it... that SHOULD NOT be easy.. i feel like my hard work and my A didnt mean much because people who i personally wouldnt even give C's or B's to.. got A's also.. and now im ranting about this but seriously... its rediculous..
Not to say there arent people who deserved A's... some did.. do.. but out of like.. the 15 in the class.. it should have only been given to maybe.. 4.. honestly.. its just.. ugh. whatever.
Moving on..
the character class started a week ago... so far its pretty cool..
I LOVE my teacher.. is amazing.. before we even got into her class there were rumors going around about how our character teacher is a bitch and blah blah blah.. then the first day of that class im sitting there talking to her and thinking "how the hell could someone think this lady is a bitch.. shes so nice"
Funny isnt it.. how stupid rumors get started about people.. especially people that they dont know anything about.
I sweare... i was soo hoping that when i left high school.. i would leave all the stupid drama behind with it.. but everywhere you go.. people are still causing and creating drama.. i just wanna tell some of these people off and be like "GET OVER YOURSELVES!!" most of these people are 21 and over... i cant comprehend what the fuck goes on in their minds.. seriously.. how much fucking pleasure can you get out of hurting someones feelings or treating someone like shit.. how far do you go before you realize that its seriously getting rediculous and theres really no point in it.. i just dont understand..
Yes.. im insecure.. but fuck man.. im not so insecure that i have to put others down in order to feel better about myself..
the only person i put down is MYSELF.. and most of the time im joking about it.. i mean yeah i mean a lot of the things i joke about but if u cant joke about yourself.. then you need help.
In the beginning i thought everyone was so cool.. i mean... people just seemed down to earth and i figured.. what the hell.. u cant really have too many friends.. but now... everyday that passes.. my mentality slowly changes about these people.
theres only like.. a tiny, handful of people in that class that i could honestly say.. are cool.. down to earth.. dont cause drama.. they just.. dont care you know? and thats how it should be.
anyhow..
in other news..
i got offered a job.. in independent movie.. and im sooo excited about it.. but the downside is.. im still in school and i dont know the hours ide have to work and all that so i dunno whats gonna happen with it.. im also scheduled to do a few beauty makeups.. for a wedding, party, and etc...
OHH!! and this is probably the biggest thing of all..
My friend Angela (who is one of the uh.. whats the word.. NICER lol girls in class..) and i.. are gonna be going to Europe when school finishes.. I even talked to my parents about it and so far theyre okay with it.. we finish school in october and even though we do have one other class to take after we graduate.. we still wanna go.. we may take that class and then go or we may go and come back and then take the class.. its a hair class and its only about a month long so either way we will be alright..
but man.. im SOO EXCITED! ive been wanting to go to Europe for so long.. and now im gonna get to..
Life is pretty damn good right now.. yeah theres a few little shitty things going on and around but.. im really trying hard not to let anything get to me.. cuz ive been pretty damn happy the past month or so.. and im not gonna let anything change that.
i think thats.. about it..
its 7:40am.. i dunno why im awake at 7:40 on a saturday but yeah... im gonna go clean up and get ready cuz i have a few places to go today.
i hope all is well with everyone..