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u know how they say "u never know what you have until you lose it"? the past few days have been so harsh and sad.. its the biggest reminder to me of what i lost. ive dated my fair share of guys.. but when i think about all of them.. the only one i could think about that really cared about me is jeff. i know our relationship didnt work because of the distance.. and maybe it was because of our schedules too.. but just thinking about all that... makes me remember how stupid and pointless it all is. the only thing that i could remember about our relationship... is that everytime i was with him.. nothing else in the world existed.. it was just him and me.. and that to me is the saddest reminder.. because all i can think about now.. is how much i miss him.
i was cleaning out my computer desk and... i found a wristband that belongs to him.. i suddenly forgot what i was doing... i found myself sitting in my chair with the wristband on my wrist.. looking at it.. and crying.
i feel like such a jerk.. cuz i feel like i blamed him for everything.. and i know it wasnt his fault.. i know he cared about me like i did about him. the saddest and perhaps most amazing realization i came to though.. is the fact that.. hes probably the only guy ive loved thats loved me back. and i dont think theres a chance that i will ever be with him again.
i miss you..
i was cleaning out my computer desk and... i found a wristband that belongs to him.. i suddenly forgot what i was doing... i found myself sitting in my chair with the wristband on my wrist.. looking at it.. and crying.
i feel like such a jerk.. cuz i feel like i blamed him for everything.. and i know it wasnt his fault.. i know he cared about me like i did about him. the saddest and perhaps most amazing realization i came to though.. is the fact that.. hes probably the only guy ive loved thats loved me back. and i dont think theres a chance that i will ever be with him again.
i miss you..