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i figured something out today. i have more sad memories then i do happy ones. everytime someones asked me to look back on something... the first thing thats come to mind has always been something to bring a tear to my eyes.. and a frown on my face... but what i realized is.. one million sad thoughts or memories... will never replace one single happy thought.... never. because at the end of the day.. at the end of everything.. all i have to do is think about that one single happy memory.. and it brings a smile to my face.. and nothing is more precious.. more amazing, and more exquisite then that. nothing. theres days when i forget that... when i dont realize how good life is... when i take it for granted... when i sit there and kick myself for thinking thoughts that i used to make fun of other people over making.. it sucks but its life right. yes.. my life is a bitch... but its MY life.. and even though its hard most of the time.. theres probably nothing in the world that i would trade it for. i know i get so upset sometimes that i dont listen to others when they try to tell me what i already know.. but it really is soo hard sometimes to forget something that hurt you so bad that it not only brought tears to your eyes.. but it scarred you.. from the inside. im not the only one whos realized all this nor am i the only one who forgets it... im the one that always says "life is a joke" well shit... then maybe we should spend more time laughing then we do crying. wouldnt it make more sense?