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So I doubt anyone reads this anymore which is a good thing I just want to get some things off my chest without actually having to worry about people getting offended. I really cannot handle having to apologize for who I am or what I say. Everytime I say what I am thinking everyone just gives me the "Okay Amanda shut up" look. I feel like half the people I talk to I only continue to because there is no one else and I would rather have friends that cant stand me than to have nothing. I feel like Im trying too hard. Even with the things that I do. Why do I even try out for the plays?? I cant act. I know this and everyone else does. And as for tennis Im not very good but I embarrass myself anyways. Im not really good at anything. Everything that I try to do just seems pointless when I know im not going to be very good at it. Heaven forbid I say that aloud. I would either get fake incouragement or people would think I was just saying it for sympathy.