on the way...

[hopeless_looser]

hey to anyone who gives a shit. i'm coming home tomorrow. that means i'm free to not get invited to things and not have anything to do. but this week was good. i only wish that there had been no computer to keep me connected with my hell known as frankfort. all but buckley, my friend. the only girl i don't feel i have to try to impress. i really don't want to feel the need to impress other girls, but i do anyway. and i know that pushes me away from them. god, why do i have to have a heart? why can't i just be like every other guy and not care? why can't i just be a heartless jerk and sleep easy every night without worrying about these things. am i doomed to care? whats the use, the only thing caring has done for me is a knotting feeling in my stomach.
ok thats enough of my stupid childish remarks. i'm done