i guess its true
Wow what an interesting boring weekend with the best end ever. I worked friday that was a complete drag, this week I worked a total of 4 hours lol what a joke. Saturday I hung out with Androo for a little bit before I went out to my sister's house in transfer for the weekend from hell. Seriously I was so close to going insane. I watched movies the WHOLE time I was there. My phone didnt work out there and there was no computer and no one to talk to. Her house is like kind of empty so there wasn't anything there to amuse me while I was bored. All I did was eat the whole time, eat and watched movies. Finally I got to come home today(i know it was only one night but seriously i was lost with out my technology) went to church which was really nice. I accidently well.. i didnt aida did.. she hit her head of a pew in the middle of mass and it was soooo loud and she started crying it looked like i did it because i was holding her, that was so embaressing. After church I spent forever trying to fix my hair.. bleh new hair is so hard to do. Then I went to the show which was AWESOME besides that first band that played... i really dont like them. Sadaharu was effing sweet as was avlr *love* lol, tonight was the first time in a while that I had fun.
I make up excuses just to touch you, I can't stop, excuse me while I fall apart.
besides all the dirty looks I got all night from megan and kylie I do believe her name is it was so much fun. Hmm I just noticed something everyone I know named megan has redhair.. is it a trend for parents to name their firecrotch children megan? Hmm.. just a weird similarity. Brendan was so mean to me tonight.. but I guess I should be used to that everyone is mean to me. Im always getting beat up. This abuse needs to stop real fast cause I can't have bruises for prom.
So Im probably just wasting my time right. Wasting it on stupid crushes. Like right now... what the hell am I doing? Im just trying to hard to find love from someone. Im coming off desperate and I know it and I can't stop. Why can't anything good last? Im so sick of feeling like this. Why do people forget pain so quickly? It always allows them to run back and do again just as if they never had that pain before. I know what happens when relationships end, you hurt, but just as bad and as miserable I was for so long after Sam I want so bad to just have a relationship again. I really just.. dislike this more then anything. I can't help but waste my time on guys that just don't like me. It started out with one guy...who couldnt be replaced and now its been doubled to two guys, the other one I never expected to ever like.. definitely not this much. Never thought I'd have trouble getting over him.
bleh this bites.
I make up excuses just to touch you, I can't stop, excuse me while I fall apart.
besides all the dirty looks I got all night from megan and kylie I do believe her name is it was so much fun. Hmm I just noticed something everyone I know named megan has redhair.. is it a trend for parents to name their firecrotch children megan? Hmm.. just a weird similarity. Brendan was so mean to me tonight.. but I guess I should be used to that everyone is mean to me. Im always getting beat up. This abuse needs to stop real fast cause I can't have bruises for prom.
So Im probably just wasting my time right. Wasting it on stupid crushes. Like right now... what the hell am I doing? Im just trying to hard to find love from someone. Im coming off desperate and I know it and I can't stop. Why can't anything good last? Im so sick of feeling like this. Why do people forget pain so quickly? It always allows them to run back and do again just as if they never had that pain before. I know what happens when relationships end, you hurt, but just as bad and as miserable I was for so long after Sam I want so bad to just have a relationship again. I really just.. dislike this more then anything. I can't help but waste my time on guys that just don't like me. It started out with one guy...who couldnt be replaced and now its been doubled to two guys, the other one I never expected to ever like.. definitely not this much. Never thought I'd have trouble getting over him.
bleh this bites.