good-byes never get easier....never....

[hopeisbrave]

when you can count hours...that's when you realize all that you will miss. the people, who are nothing short of amazing, that you've grown up with, and no matter how much time passes or distance you try and put between you and them, it seems nothing will ever change. they are still them, and you are still you, and it's like as if time has been suspended while apart, so that when you do reunite the moment is not awkward, or uncomfortable, but just like it has always been. it's in this reflection i find myself on the verge of crying. how can i leave such beautiful and amazing people, and yet how can i not return to the beautiful and amazing i have come to know, who have made my year apart from home more at ease, and fulfilled. it's a dillemma that has weight on every side. yet i know i must leave because soon there will be nothing here to make me want to stay. these amazing people i have known for years are now all and finally going their separate ways...and i think it is for the better. yes...it is all for the better...

i found out how much i meant to someone last night, i hope they realize how much they have meant to me...

17 and 1/2 hours until i leave for nashville...nashville skyline hold on for me...i am coming